It was a pleasure to work with you too.

When ready I'd like to reciprocate.
How do one go about connecting via Facebook groups and further exploring on the forum?

Love

there is no final truth to land on. no arrival, just more falling.

- The desperate push to search is completely gone. Still willing to keep falling though.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

- No. As I said before: The ...

Yes! I have found what I was looking for but there is still things that could be shaken loose and lingering undefined questions. There are waves in and out of drama and uncertainty about where this will land.

Always ready for questions, either there is an answer or it is a help to push further ...

The separate self I took for my own, is merely a seemingly coherent narrative.

Love

Not really, Not doubt. It's been seen and every aspect knows that it's true. Still as I said, nodding off.

Much Love

Really difficult to describe. Everything is different. There is a preference to proceed and clarify but no burning desire. It has shifted back and forth alot. Like nodding off over and over again everytime jolted awake.
Right now, I don't know how to answer the question what is Kvist or what's ...

Can't put my finger on exactly what a decision is. They appear the same way emotions do. The word free will doesn't even make sense.
There is a kind of relaxing into action. Smooth. It's wonderful but everything is far from clear or self evident, trying to think about it produces paradoxes on ...

It's disorienting. There is fluctuation between only this and drama. Sense of urgency is gone. There is serenity but I am a long long way from being ready to start talking like a sissy and do dharma talks on youtube.
The phrase "Thank you for nothing" makes complete sense.

I had learned to let thoughts be thoughts but just wasn't able to believe the "I" also was a thought. It's so obvious, why all the literature to muddle the waters. Everything I have read has fed the I-thought. I expected 10 or more years. Or rather "I" expected to never get untangled. There is a ...

I let the unicorn go.
I let kvist go.

When all such ideas are absent, like letting go of a hot air balloon ballast. Merging. Light. Dissolving.

Today has felt, nice. maybe a bit automatic. Not sure. Non-imposing.
A bit. Glimpses of that lightness.

Otherwise, exactly the same. Mundane.

Right now feels like the search is what ...

When words like "I", "Me", "Who", "Who or what am I" or anything pointing towards or looking for that answer there is nothing sticking to anything. Then there is only a seamless stream of coming and going.

yeah

Maybe it isn't the tension(Knot) that I actually imagine as me, I feel there is something else I can't reach.
…because I still indentify with an entity.
An entity watching Kvist making decisions, acting, thinking.
Maybe not an entity.
I know I'm being fooled. Why the hell can't I see through ...

May need some time for this. I am not sure what the "gate" metaphor means.
I look around, hear and smell and taste and feel and think and feel emotions move around and pains in the body. Nothing seems attached to anything.
Working on this around the clock and feel exhausted. But the exhaustion is ...

I follow sense data, there is an experience. I don't know what "me" means anymore. I clearly see the difference between story and direct experience but it feels like I am standing in a thick fog at a crossroad. I think I am at the right crossroad though. I do not se a me at the center of experience ...