Lol... I caught that during our discussions but I wanted to leave it as to not further deepen my need to prove Erin the woman existed... Thought that was kind of perfect that it happened that way... ;)

By the way....I just wanted to truly thank you for guiding me. Thank you, thank you, thank you. <3

Sounds good!

Awesome....
for the FB group...do I just search for liberation unleashed?

I would say not for now. But may I contact you if I do?
I plan to stay on the forum...at least reading-wise. :)

What is self for you now compared from where we started?

It is no longer real. It never was and never is. It is a thought in itself and a concept that I have been attached into my whole life. But just as a baby just is and has no concept of itself or ownership or creating things...everything just ...

Just wanted to check in....super busy day and I want to take some time to thoroughly answer your questions. It may not be until tomorrow morning (when I am alone again) but I will be in touch soon. <3

I want to ask how this becomes abiding....but I think a better question is what is the best way to let this work through all my life? It feels as if it would be natural and yet, I hear of people seeing and then allowing it to drift away. All of which I know is an illusion as it can't leave...it can ...

Hello!

I am back from my trip and had an interesting experience. To pick up where we left off....

Now you say " I feel as I am back behind when I look".

If you really go into that sensation, and look at that. Experience it. Can there be something that is in the back? Or is this just another ...

Another sensation. That will be a place I will keep visiting to keep looking (if need be)....the back behind piece is something I have sat in for a long time as a "seeker". Superego at its finest. Wow...just really saw it as another sensation...no guilt...no doing it wrong...just another one. Then I ...

No...I can see it is all thought. The no I, the I....I can see it is all there. All "in front"....I feel as if I am back behind when I look. I still shift back and forth from looking to being in it believing I am the I....but I do believe I can see it.

Confused a bit...so, is "no I" merely an experience or is it reality?

Why do you need to be with no thought to be know I? Could it be that the seeing/understanding that thoughts are happening without a thinker is in this inquiry synonymous to No I? Is there a thinker of thoughts?

No thinker of thoughts. There is none. It is all just happening. It's happening ...

PS...it just clicked for me when "enlightened" people say "I can use my ego when I choose to...moving back into it to accomplish something and then allowing it to be and moving back out of it" (paraphrased)

First, thank you again for being on this journey with me. I truly appreciate you.

I decided to meditate and get still. I could feel that things were to busy and I wasn't calm enough...my mind wasn't calm enough for me to "pin" it down to look at it. Felt like I was trying to chase a 2 year old ...