Hi Sandra,

Yes this seems like the obvious next step, even with my deeply questionable nature - which is why we are here in the first place! Just like to say thankyou so much for your always prompt replies, time & patience over the 3 few weeks. Starting to really solidify what the word selfless ...

Hi S, David's thoughts for the last few months are probably 75%+ about how to conceptualise the gateless gate for others he knows. This seems rather silly, D

Reading your answers I get the idea that you see and still have doubts. Are the doubts related with the seeing of the separate self illusion or with the implications of that seeing? Do you think you are ready for LU 6 final questions or is there something that you would like to look closer?

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Hi Sandra,

The only doubt arises from the doubting thoughts in general (questioning nature/truth) that have arisen over the years & led me to this point/made me question this assumed reality & perception of an 'I' which has been an illusion. There is a concern 'losing (my) mind'/definition others ...

Can you have a look to the way things happen and give me some examples of stuff that give you certainty that the separate self is an illusion? What do you see going on? What changes with this seeing - if anything?

It just is that way it is. The stuff that gives me certainty is the awakening ...

What needs to change so that you will feel 100% sure the self is an illusion?
Do you have the expectation that thoughts about a self and behaving the same way as before will stop suddenly? Can you control what is going on now?

Hi Sandra,

Sorry I couldn't reply on last day of the golf break. Hope ...

Hi Sandra,

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Are you sure that there is a thing called mind creating thoughts? Or is this an idea about what is going on?
What do you think the mind is? How do you know mind exists?
Can you find any evidences of a mind creating thoughts?
What does the concept mind point to in your experience ...

Other than an idea stating that thoughts can be created, what evidences do you see that thoughts can be deliberately created? Do you experience thoughts being created from stratch? Or are they simply appearing?

But they feel like they can be created sometimes? No thought is created from scratch ...

[quote]Would you say there is an I doing all this thinking?
If there is an I thinking, thoughts are being made and are controlled by this I... is this your experience?
Do you have any control of choice regarding what thoughts pop up?
Are you creating thoughts?
Can you stop thinking if you want to ...

Hi Sandra,

Have a look to what feels to be a boundary. Then describe how do you know you've found a boundary.
Don't rely on thoughts, check your immediate experience.

There is no boundary between this me & life itself. This is clear, as we are all one happening. But I still feel like this 'I ...

Hi Sandra,

What is causing some fear is mainly a story of what may happen? Other than that, are you okay? Spend some time noticing what surrounds you. Is this moment okay as it is? Could this moment be any different?

Yes, probably a fear of losing touch with people/their 'reality' & causing ...

When there is fear, what is happening isn't also what is true at the moment?

Yes, it is painful & hard to differentiate from ruminating over thoughts & often ends in a blankness/switching off, or attempt to 'engage' in the feeling & cry cathartically for a release or even smile/laugh at it all ...

It seems to me that you think some experiences are more "enlightened" than others?

No, I don't mean that. It is simply that it is possible to not attach to all these random thoughts & associated feelings & be entirely present with the body & mind & watch things unfolding. Nature's order ...

Hi Sandra,

Many apologies for not replying til now, but was at Into the Wild festival & no phone. Will get back to at least responding once a day again, as recommended from now :-)

When in the middle of nature, wilderness, check if you can find any boundaries between a me that is inside the body ...