was it experienced that there is no self?

Yes it was. More than once. And that experience is easily overlooked. Distractions arise, then a mental habit of making their content my own is most often the reflex. Having had (yes, past tense) that experience doesn't preclude ideas about doubting its ...

Regarding the last answer in my last reply, the separator isn't real. It's just that it seems real before looking more closely.

I have a question from a fellow guide:
It's more like ok you fooled me again , true, but that doesn't make you real.

Who is being fooled?
No one. Questions for Q6
1. What exactly is it that has a separate self?
Nothing
2. What exactly is it that has a "dream state"?
Nothing, dreams occur, like ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No there is no separate self, me, I anywhere in any way shape or form. There never was. Bodies occur, like bugs and mountains and rocks and cups of coffee and computers and planets and ...

Ok. I just read the questions. I will reread them a few more times and see what comes up.

And then I will report back, maybe one or two at time.

When the “I” has been seen through, fully and completely, what's left?

Nothing. Old, conditioned patterns of thought like "I'm too fat." Thoughts, feelings, senses passing through nothing. Dreams at night of an I that thought it was real.

What exactly is it? What is it made of? What makes you sense/feel like there is still a 'you' in it?

Awareness is Nothing. It's made of Nothing. Absence. Once there is Something, it is an object of awareness, not awareness itself. Awareness is blank space. Am I blank space? I think I'm blank ...

Sure, feel free (oh yeah, you already do).

I haven't meditated since Wed., when I wrote you last. I've thought about it and intended it repeatedly, but I haven't done it. Just reporting that, because it is true. I feel like I should write now that I will try harder and force myself to do it. Should ...

Ok. I just reread your mediation instructions. I'm going to start it now.

Also, as I just reread a few of our last exchanges, "no self" seemed normal, ordinary. It was like, yeah, no self, no doubts there. And then thoughts clamped down and words started to attempt to nail specifics onto no doubt ...

Problem is you use your thinking a lot instead of just looking, instead of using direct experience only.
Yes, but not exclusively. I do have direct experience as well.
And yes, I will respond to your posts more quickly, that could be relevant.
The adjunct pointer of questioning "who has doubts ...

Thoughts arise regarding the illusion of self. Self is an illusion. Self is not an illusion. Both thoughts. Self is an illusion seems the more true thought, but that too is just a thought. The one who would be upset to lose senses, relationships, abilities, possessions, memories, emotions and ...

Greetings Andrei,

What about the platform on which things happen, call it mind-screen, call it awareness, consciousness etc. Is that a deeper level of the "self" or is it just another bodily function?


I think "awareness" is a deeper level of life more than self. A self is what one thinks one ...

Do you think other peoples have "selves" for real and just you don`t?

If I don't have a self than it makes sense that no one does. If I was the only one without a self, that would be a sort a self, a defining difference. Most people seem to think they have selves, but I often think I have one too ...

Hi Andrei,

This is so befuddling! Is there an inside and an outside of the body?
In order to get into DE, I close my eyes and try to feel an inside and outside of the body. Thoughts/concepts bombard the blankness. Heartbeating is sensed. Inside. I open my eyes to see the difference between inside ...

Yes, shit does happen.

and then tell me, have you ever chosen anything or did choices simply happened?

In retrospect it seems like things just turned out the way that they did. That what happened, happened. Big choices like colleges, marriages, divorces, jobs, etc came and went. Sometimes ...