1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

Nope, there is no "I" or "me" and there never was.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully ...

There is no "I" and yes, no one controls anything.

And no, there is no free will. If thoughts are a form of looking and there is no I, there can't be free will.

(I've felt like for years intuitively, and what I relief to get it again!)

Thank you, Lawrence

In other words, if when I look I see that everything is One, that there is no separation of anything, that it is all consciousness, with no "I"...then who cares what is real or not?

Hi Lawrence,

When I re-read our thread I see I indeed was using awareness in two different ways, so I'm glad you clarified.

So yes when I look, my thoughts are just another form of looking.

Santa Claus and/or the spoon aren't real, they exist in imagination. Imagination is a visual thought form ...

Hi Lawrence,

Actually when I look, my thoughts aren't "I". When I look, they are just another form of awareness.

The thinking part of me concluded thoughts are "I". When I look, thoughts are consciousness too, they are not "I"

I am using the words consciousness & awareness interchangeably ...

P.s. There is no more fear, it passed.

Hi Lawrence,

I practiced the exercise you gave me many times since you sent it.

...and when I look, I can't find an "I" or "me".
When I look, I notice only awareness / consciousness. Only awareness -- inward when I close my eyes or notice sensations in or on my body, and outward when my eyes are ...

Hi Lawrence,

At the moment I'm writing to you where the land and sea meet, from the very eastern tip of Hawaii island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean.

Before the age of 28, I had no sense of God, or a higher consciousness. I was not able to witness any thoughts, in fact there were too many ...

Hi Lawrence,

My name is Keri.
That's fine, I can give up my sense of having a Divine Life Purpose.

ill take the Truth, no matter how uncomfortable it may be. I want the truth.

I will respond once a day.

What brings you to Liberation Unleashed?:
I 'woke up' at the age of 28 in 2008. Since then, I have been committed to my spiritual path and journey. I am in an interesting space at the moment and a friend referred me to Liberation Unleashed as an avenue to explore on my path.

What are you looking ...