thank you so much Ilona!
this has been very interesting, in times difficult but mostly a lot of fun. the joy of it all!

Much love
/ David

1. no, not in the way it was previously assumed to be. in some way it did "exist", like the christian God exists to the believer, or santa claus to a child, a fantasy. but of course there never was a separate entity, however the idea of that separate entity was believed, but is not longer.

2. it ...

hmmm. is one ever ready? :) yes I think so!

I went back and read some of the earlier exchanges, and some of the stuff that I understood mainly logically/conceptually I now "know" in a more real sense. so yes, I would say that most of the itches has been scratched, and I can't think of anything as of now that needs to be done. it feels like a ...

hmm, it feels like I've seen that for some time actually!

undivided awareness... yes. strictly I don't know that they're thinking, it's an educated guess!

there is only a line between bodies, or at least something that can be conceived of as a "line".
it is one movement, or perhaps just "movement"

no I looking "out", no...

no, there really isn't an entity as such, only that certain stuff seems to be only happening locally, in "my" awareness. but on the other hand, there are no line, so what is even the "local awareness"/"my awareness"... in "my" field of awareness stuff happens, even if they're not happening to an ...

no, I cannot find such a line.
when eyes are closed, the world is dark but only "my" world, or so it is assumed. I guess the "separation" stems from the parts of experience that seem to be only experienced by "me". the body is not a container, no... no container, just awareness (the "container ...

yes, what was previously assumed to be "me" is clearly an illusion in that sense that it isn't what I thought it would be.
I do wanna be careful to not overextend myself here! I'm not 100% confident in the relationship between what appears inside "my" consciousness and the world "outside". is there ...

well, no one-thing drives the body as far as I can tell.
sorry for the late responses! there is definitely stuff going on... just difficult to put into words.

the I is not an entity that drives the body!

what I can say for sure is that the "I" is not who "I" am, whatever I thought the "I" to be, I think no longer. let me probe this question about "driving body" and making things happen a liiiittle bit more before the big fat yes :)

a self is a label, a trigger for certain semi-random thoughts and ...

the separate self is an illusion, or rather what I assumed it was is an illusion. the "self" exists, but is not "me" so to speak. there is no doubt about that! well, in a way it depends on what "separate" means... it's not separate, but an "object" among many. perhaps one could say there's been a ...

the self seem to be not one thing, but rather a label or a common denominator that refers to a not totally random but ever-changing number of things, mostly in regards to memories, future fantasies in the form of protagonist. when the self is examined closer it seems to have no "concrete" properties ...

it's going well I think! nothing much has been happening, but the self is not what it once was. that realisation stops a lot of thinking in it's tracks, since it tries to go back to the "root" of certain thoughts and feelings, finding nothing concrete to hold on to. the "abbreviation" insight was ...