thank you Andrei! it was a "liberating" journey :-)
Thank you for guiding me through it, i really did enjoy it as well.

I'm sure you will continue to have the fun being:-)
With gratitude,
Anigma

Ha ha OK. All is good and welcome.

The self seems to exist when a thought arises.
There really is no self.
I do have a body and a mind which is a manifested functional unit so i can operate in this world.
I am just part of this consciousness/awareness. just being here and now and living in the ...

So if i may ask, you believe this is it? Wouldn't continuing the spiritual practice (meditation, a guru to guide) deepen the silence and may unfold more of the cosmos into our consciousness? eg, bliss , unity experience, more change in perception?

ha ha i the lizard king certainly was a gate ...

Thank you.
Yes, it did seem like just a change in perception of what I called I :-) and rightly said, now that i am aware i will wear the garments a bit more loose.

I guess awareness is what is and consciousness is what we are conscious of so far..words, no need to beat around them.

Agreed, the ...

Wow, that seems really simple!

So let me ask you some doubts that i have..
1. How do you differentiate between consciousness and awareness?
2. I understand that the I thought is what makes me identify with the body, senses, emaotions etc. i do get glimpses and am completely in present a lot of ...

True, actually everything is transient but sensory inputs stay longer than thoughts so give an illusion of real.

Hmm, any other object i see, while i see with no thoughts arising, i dont feel the seperateness. As soon as it triggers a thought, I am seperate from what i am seeing.
Awareness seems to ...

Actually not personal initially till a thought comes for eg. what did i do, when did this start, will i need a surgerey, let me get a pain killer or change my position etc. The sensation itself doesnt have a me-ness but typically it very quickly gives rise to the I thought.

I cant say that for sure ...

I would like to go deeper, but at this point, it seems like sometimes thoughts control my action, and sometimes action just happens.

Again, sometimes no identification with sensory inputs and sometimes there is. When pain is bothering my back or I'm getting too cold, it seems personal, it effects ...

Well it seems like some actions need a choice to be made and some actions go on without thinking. Breathing certainly doesnt have the I thought. Also if a mosquito is biting me, i dont think but my hand will raise to slap it. But some actions are preceded by thought. Like if I am thirsty should i ...

Ya, looking deeper not not answering the ques technically, the "I" seems to exist when the thought arises.

The thought arises in the mind, maybe based on a sensation eg. dryness in the mouth, thirst, thought created to go get water; then the body gets up and walks. so at that point only walking is ...

i as i identify with my mind and my body?

my mind makes a decision to go someplace and then the body gets up and goes because there is a will. Breathing is more by reflex, the mind doesnt have to think of doing it.

so i want to be able to experience the "truth". There are glimpses i have got, where i lose my "self", not living in this illusion, i want to experience it more fully. i dont know how it may change me. i just feel the urge to know the truth.

No, i dont feel any fear arising or tension when you say ...

Hi Andrei, looking forward.
I am a bit shy and also experience self-doubt , the 8 was un-intentional.
I will do the best to burn it down :-)

What brings you to Liberation Unleashed?:

Heard about it from a friend. I want to be able to see things as they are

What are you looking for? What do you expect from this?:

to understand the structure of thought, the witness, when i use judgement and when its truly equanimous

What is your ...