Hello Dridhamati,

Any reason why 'objects of mind', aka thoughts, aren't 'in awareness' too?
And, where is this 'awareness'? Can it be located?

No, no reason why thoughts weren't included with sights, sound, smell, taste and touch. They really are with them, just an oversight while typing ...

Hello Dridhamati,

- where is the object of sight, of hearing, of touch, of smell or of taste?
- and where is mind, where is thought?

The object of sight/hearing/touch/smell or taste is in awareness. Experience of these things ebb and flow in/out of awareness. They are real, in the sense that ...

Hello Dridhamati,

Still not with regular internet access, so replies may be sporadic for now.

You're doing very well.
Thank you for this, it was reassuring. I described an image of myself to a friend as 'a dog chasing its tail'. Your comment above helped me believe it needn't be forever!

So ...

Hello Dridhamati,

Still here but with limited internet access at present due to the house move.

I'm feeling increasing frustration, wanting to break through, feeling like I've been giving 70% attention for various reasons (some perceived practical barriers, some fear) and wanting to give 100% now ...

Hello Dridhamati,

what makes this 'reality' any more real than that dream you recalled?
Nothing. Nothing makes now more real than dreaming other than what happens in waking life is taken more seriously; there is more conscious 'I' in the waking life. Also, the things that happen in dreams, their ...

Hello Dridhamati,

Hmm. And do these discrepancies not happen in 'waking life'? For example, try and remember an object, a newspaper print, even a touch from a few days back.
Do they all appear as crisp and vibrant as they did when first experienced?
No, they really don't. I've been noticing that ...

Hello Dridhamati,

Just a quick check in: I've been moving house, I'll be able to reply fully to the above tomorrow.

Thanks,
M

Hello Dridhamati,

In view of this last report above, is there any part of that long post of April 17th that you feel needs particular attention?

No, it doesn't seem so, they all seem to have resolved themselves.

Please recall a dream you might have had where a 'you' was doing X, Y and Z, and ...

Hello Dridhamati,

No, you couldn't convince me. There's just no way I can be a fixed, separate entity; nothing going on here in this body and mind is static, consistent or unique to 'me'. My specific memories, experiences and chemistry mean I experience the world and everything/one in it in a ...

*in the above, I meant nihilism, not narcissism!

Hello Dridhamati,

In the vein of honesty, I feel like I'm stuck. After the situation while making the tea- where I had to catch my breath after seeing things were just happening- I feel like something has pulled back and I've begun to wrap myself in circles a bit with thoughts such as 'if I'm not ...

Hello Dridhamati,

All is well thank you but I have also been away, for a week, and just got home. I'll be able to report in tomorrow- just wanted to quickly let you know that I'm still here!

Thanks,
M

Thanks Dridhamati,

There's some meaty stuff to leave me with there! I'm looking forward to looking deeper into it. I had an initial read of what you wrote and no questions popped up.

So farewell on your retreat; I hope it is what it needs to be.

Thanks again and look forward to being back in ...

Hello Dridhamati,

Thank you for your reply.

And looking at the sensations, looking at the thoughts, in direct experience, can 'fear' be found in any one of them? Does one particular sensation, or thought, stand out as 'being' fear, or 'causing' fear?
Looking more closely, 'Fear' can't be found ...

Hello Dridhamati,

Now, observing after the fear dissipates. What has disappeared, that the fear can't hold onto? Basically, what makes up the fear? What is fear made of?
In Direct Experience, the fear was made up of sensations and thoughts. Thoughts such as 'when will this end?', 'what is wrong ...