1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there
ever?

No. And there never was.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from
your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

Oh man ...

Alright John, he stood me up, so I guess I'd best close this chapter and let life continue :-)

I noticed that some users join a Facebook group. I'd prefer not to if that's alright. I don't have a Facebook account and would rather not create one for this purpose.

Sure. We'll take some last selfies together :-)

And no, the fiction isn't graspable :)

Nope. No point.
What's left: everything - because nothing actual was lost :)
What the implications will be, time will tell... maybe a bit more of a 'oh right....', and less cramping up.

Oh that's a funny Freudian. I meant "there MIGHT be...."

Yes sir. Holding on or not holding on, there is no holding on. :-) There mind be some chatter about it, but whatever. And it's for no one to control either. So yeah, what can you do. Same thing I've always done I guess (or maybe not!) :-)

Hmm that seems to be both impossible and the only thing you could do.
I couldn't be conscious all day of 'dropping I', but at the same time I can only act impulsively, or impulsive acting is what happens. There's nothing else to be done. Everything has always been impulsive. There has never been any ...

Roger! Thanks for the patience and support John. Really appreciate it.

"Hanging on" seems to be thought patterns. Recurring themes or content. It also appears that this all belongs to one organism, a body with thoughts and sensations. There's no control over any of it, but it's a unitary thing, it all interacts. Feelings and sensations lead to thoughts, thoughts in ...

Yeah actually, I mean, if there never was "me" (which there wasn't), then there is no control to be lost or gained either.

It was just that I noticed that on a "human level" - psychologically - there is a lot of hanging onto and fear of losing control. So I thought maybe it also played into this ...

Oh, all sorts of things. Financial trouble, not being able to take care of myself, failing, being inadequate/not good enough, not being able to sustain a certain idea that I have of myself. Such things.

Wow John. I have realised something, of which I only realised this morning how important it is or might be for our investigation. I've been reflecting, and noticed that every problem I have is related to (illusory) control. There are so many things that I want to be in control over (in certain ...

An exited fear, like what you would get when you were about to board a roller coaster. A feeling of anticipation too, of something happening, but then the feeling subsides again.

Yes, John, actually there is. Took me a while to admit it. I'm trying to find where it is. I can't locate or define what it is. Frustration arising again. I wish I had one of these Eckhart Tolle "Who is the I that cannot live with himself anymore?" type of insights. Why doesn't it click? I feel like ...