Sandra,
Thank you so much for all you have done - your Time and Patience have changed my life!
Lots of hugs to you!!!
Heather

Hi Sandra!
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there
ever?
No separate me - Never was and never will be!
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from
your own experience. Describe it ...

Hi Sandra,
Have you been able to find, a ‘you’ that is the ‘experiencer’?
Or a you that is the doer, or can control what happens?
Or a you that ‘makes’ decisions?
Or a you who ‘does the thinking’?
Or a you that is the body or inside the body?
Are the five body senses made to arise or experienced by ...

Hi Sandra,

I need to know what is that, at the moment, keeps you stuck in the illusion.
Where do you think a separate you can be and why is still believed there is separation from all the rest.
I know the "I" is an illusion but I do still get caught up in my thoughts. However, the thoughts are ...

Dang it - one more thing that was noticed: I believe that I had it wrong when I said experiencing moment to moment was where it was at. I have started to experience a continuous moment - the moment just keeps going -no break. Sorry I forgot to include that in the previous post! :)

Hiya Sandra!
Made it back - love the mountains!
Had a great time catching myself or rather the "I" trying to take credit for things being done. I would be feeding the dogs and noticed that the thought of "go do that" was secondary to the action. But "I" kept me on my toes to keep seeing this.
My ...

Hi Sandra!
What I see here - and I can be wrong! - is the fear of not doing something, fear of consequences?
Or in other words, the need to be in control of life?

This made me smile and nod me head in agreement! That is exactly it - all of that quote is it for me.
After all what is the illusion ...

Hi Sandra,
Thanks for this!

Hmm, I wonder if you're expecting that crossing the gate will make all be well... what are your expectations around seeing no self?
No expectations - had them at the first - hoping to not get caught up in thoughts as much. But truly none - just an verbal expression of ...

Hi Sandra,
Ok 100% honesty - not all is well. Can't get pass responsibility. Just read Ilona's post on the price of freedom. I need help burning the bullshit idea of having to be responsible. Really have wanted to give up - my freedom isn't worth not being responsible to those I love. Stupid idea ...

Hi Sandra!!
All is well. Trying to keep in experience and out of thought. Have built quite the identity. Trying to just be in the moment. I am off to the mountains from Friday October 2nd thru Sunday October 11th. Family week in the Rockies.
Would it be better to start again on October 12th ? Or ...

Hiya Sandra,
Wow i have seemed to have taken 10 steps back from the dang gate.
I am off to the mountains for the weekend and will not have cell service. I'll be back Sunday night.
I WILL try to remain in experience and not ideas/thoughts.
Thank you for all your time and staying with me,
Heather

Hi Sandra,


When walking, when movement is going on, what do you see happening?

What is moving the body? Is it an I?
When walking...movement is just happening - "I" is not present - life is moving through the body but it is not a conscious thing - it is just happening. Nothing needs to be ...

Hiya Sandra,
Got to see your post first thing this morning and had fun doing some testing :)

Does this mean that when a plan is thought it always works out? Is this your experience?
Can you give me some examples - from your experience - of how intent is experienced?
Nope plans do not if ever work ...

Hiya Sandra,
Here we go......

5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How
does it work? What are you responsible for?
Decisions are better understood now - they happen and the mind/thought comes after and tries to take credit. Free will and choice ...

Hiya Sandra,
I was kinda scared to let you go - but with this list of questions - we have a few days yet :)

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there
ever?
Nope there is not a separate entity and if the "I" starts showing up out of ...