Hi John,

Apologies for delay - had a lot on.

No need for apologies!

How do you see seeking now?

I can remain in 'Rigpa' for longer and longer with each passing day. Many years ago, although i did meditate with my eyes shut then, i came to a point where there was a great 'release' at the back ...

Hi John,

Whilst I know we are talking words here, but say that phrase: "I am awareness!" and look to see what the "I" points to.

Only words! I see what it points to John, a self, but believe me it is only words,

There is no 'I' only 'Rigpa'

Mike

Another answer,

What is the me he talks about?

There is no 'me' only emptiness

To what did he look to see there isn't a Mike?

There is nowhere to look

Mike

Hi John,

What is the me he talks about?

I am awareness! This is only a word and could change depending on your belief system

To what did he look to see there isn't a Mike?

There was no looking, Mike doesn't show up anymore

Mike

Hi John,

Thank you. Would you say you are done with respect to our inquiry into 'self', that you see this clearly? Seeking comes out of a lack - is there any lack? If there does feel to be a lack, pierce into the question of whether 'lack' is a thing in itself, and could ever be the property of a ...

Hi John,

Is you Mike or is you aint? :)

Most definitely not! Haven't seen 'Mike' for a while now, and don't intend to,

Mike, (even feels wrong signing off as Mike)

Hi John,

I need you to guide me here. As you know, this forum is all about seeing that the constructed self known as 'Mike" (in this case) is pure fiction, having no real existence; and that you are not this 'Mike' character. Firstly, do you see this 100%? Secondly, who is the one searching for ...

Hi John,

Lovely to hear from you. Thought you may have disappeared in a puff of rigpa. :)

Hahaha if only!

Did you sort the inside/outside thing?

I did, it wasn't hard, just a slight shift in perspective, probably just at a low point in my practice at the minute

Mike

Hi John,

Everything is fine, still using my waking hours as my meditation, just sometimes feel things are moving a little slowly, probably expecting the 'bells and whistles' but i will stay on course, i'm sure there's an epiphany just around the corner with my name on it :)

Mike

Hi John,

Ok, lets explore this a little. That sense of looking out from inside. In the same rigorous way, you saw thru the concepts like "awareness" and "mine", sit in that place and set aside the concepts "inside"/"outside".

You can try to find an edge to looking where inside might end, and ...

Hi John,

Could you say more about the concept you had found confusing - how would you describe that concept, and how would you understand it now.


Initially, i wasn't sure which part of my character, or to be more precise, my behaviour was due to the influence of 'Mike', i thought it was a ...

Hi John,

Now, I just need to check in with you on this MY "happy place" - now, this isn't the word police LOL - but words can often reveal unconscious aspects. Just check out this being aware "place" and notice the sense of this being mine. Just watch that sense of mine (we're not pushing anything ...

Hi John,

Whether you leave well alone or not, "Mike" is un-concerned, being a fiction - yes? :)

Let me know if there is any stickiness with respect to being free of the apparent fact of "being Mike".
Is this in the bones? Is there any subtle holding on to "being Mike" - if so, it will drop when ...

Hi John,

Indeed. Feel the open-ness of the experience, free from calling it this or that.

It is - as it is. You notice that?

Have a deep play with it - in this "awareness state", make it the "Witness state" and see if there aren't subtle differences.

See thru the thought "Witness" - see it as ...

Hi John,

There is an experience - you can call it "winessing" or "being a watcher"

This is where language is useful, because it reveals very clearly the desire to identify AS 'SOMETHING' whether that be an idea (me) or a feeling/perspective (watcher).

Can being not take care of itself?

Do you ...