I might let out some of the 'I' stuff here Ilona. Writing helps me see.
There is resistance in what I so call, 'negative circumstances'. There is a lot of worries about work, finances, health(chronic symptoms) and intimate relationship. I left my stable, well paid job last year(????), finances ...

Thought coming up' I have responsibilities'. It would be like believing that I am the one doing anything and everything...ehe...funny 'I' thought lol ( a very strong conditioning in the nursing career: responsible for people's lives and health)
Is it true?
No, nope, zipo, non

I do not have ...

Any doubt coming up?

Well...I feel that once the 'no self' was seen, there is no turnaround. Thank goodness! Can not say that 'doubting' thoughts and beliefs does not come to the surface. But then again, 'doubting' happens' without an 'i'. No control over it. It just IS. So it does not matter ...

No self is like Being. Like I AM. Nothing is separate. Everything is joined. Life flows as you. Thoughts, emotions and sensations comes and goes like clouds in the sky. None of it is taken seriously. Nothing has to appear or disappear. Everything is happening at once without control or obstacles. It ...

Yep...it does make sense Ilona and it is simple.
Thanks!!!

I seem to be stuck here Ilona. I do not know how to answer. Nothing really changed. Thoughts, emotions, physical sensations and discomfort still comes and goes. But I do not seem to take it personal. At times when I stop to inquire, I notice that thoughts and emotions just vanishes. Using both ...

What is me?

'me' is also a symbole used in language. Like 'i', it is without meaning or value. A tiny we bit of dust compare to all the sand in the world. A tiny we bit of water vapor comparte to all the ocean of the world.

How does it work?

It is used to point to 'me' as in my self or to 'me ...

There is no me in any shape...no triangles, no circles, no squares, no 'me'...there is no me in any form...no box...no periphery...just space...infinite space!!!! wowais!!! Ah Ah Ah...'i' does not exist...nothing happened in reality...just Life/Shit!...the shit never hit the fan!...eheiiii!....no ...

What is that i that is looking for me?

I don't know...a figment of my imagination. A symbole like all the others. Equally without meaning and without value. It is none existant in reality. There is no 'i'. It is unreal

How does it work?

"i' tells a story. A story of a character. And a story is a ...

Hi Ilona...okay here we go...Let the ranting begin lol

What is that self and how does it work?
I would say that the self is something that is made up. Yet it is no-thing. An imaginary identity. It's like pretending to be this or that just for the fun of it, playing the game of relationships between ...

Yesterday this is what came up as an answer to the question...

As I am not the one doing anything, knowing anything or being anything...as everything is done, known and being without a 'self', there is nothing to do, know or be. It is all happening without 'me'. It feels like relief. There is no ...

Hi!!!

I seem to be stuck at that question...how does it feel?...I could talk about past experiences of momentary total release. But right now it seems to not really be the case...A lot of emotions...And I can feel the identification to what is happening around me right now(which seems to be a ...

OMG!!!...For the past 2 years I've had visions...Most of them are of nature or people looking straight at me...I am so dumbfounded when it happens. Those visions seems so real and alive...like mini movies...just as real as I am looking outdoor right now. Yet,during visions, my eyes are closed. It is ...

So is it true that there is no separate 'me' at all?
There is no separate me in reality. A separate me is a play, a game. The game of wanting to be somebody.

Was there ever a 'me'?
There was never a me except in an illusory story of 'self'

How certain are you?

When I look around(sitting outside ...

I understand that a story is personal...there is an 'I' attached to it...But in truth everything is happening to no one...there is no meaning attached to thoughts...The 'I' thought makes up meaning or fiction, like 'it' wants to own it. Like 'I am the one in charge, I am doing this or that, I am the ...