It's wonderful to see that what I have been searching for, for so long, has been staring me right in the face!

I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time out to guide me - and of course, having so much patience throughout the process. Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou ...

Still here, sorry I disappeared for a while back then - literally. If I am honest the seeking for liberation has dropped considerably, which is quite liberating in itself.

I wrote and rewrote some stuff, I hope it's ledgible, it's quite long too, here goes.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self ...

It's actually quite impressive - how real the sense of a 'me' appears when left unquestioned.

Yes I think I'm ready for the questions. Fire away!

Well, when I take an honest look - no!

It's so simple its comical. Why isn't this taught growing up? I sort of feel the wool's been pulled over my eyes for the past 30 years!

When I look directly, without getting caught up in thought, there really is no separation. Experience happens at zero distance from 'me'. I have been watching the sky here, when I look at a piece of blue sky, there is nothing in my direct experience that signifies that it is at a distance. When my ...

I find it quite helpful to write this all down, so sorry about the length. So I was inquiring into what it is that experiences experience, and your question to me was: Do you experience awareness apart form whatever you are experiencing? Which is another was of asking:

- Is awareness separate from ...

Hi, I am very sorry I haven’t replied sooner – it’s been a busy week, I will make sure I post something to let you know if I am away for longer than a day or two in future. Nonetheless, the investigation is still at the forefront of my mind, but I feel as if I am onto something perhaps(?).

Words ...

Well, there is still curiosity. If I am not sensations and thoughts, nor is there a self directing and controlling the body and mind, then what am I?

There is a sense of being. Experience is happening to ??? (awareness?). The closest I get is if I relax attention and observe passively without ...

Hello and thank you for the words of encouragement.

I can’t find a “you”, “me” or a central entity making decisions. A “you” isn’t needed to tell me which foot to place in front of the other when walking, or whether I need to take another breath.

When I pick a number between 1 and 20, the number ...

Hello, I am still alive and kicking. Thu/Fri are busy for me, I usually don’t have the time to jump on my laptop until Saturday.

I have been investigating the “you” that makes/doesn’t make decisions for the past couple days, I’m not going to lie I have found it hard. I started to write down my ...

I have been wrestling with this today, and have found it difficult to grasp what actually going on during the decision-making process. I made the following observations, sorry for the length:

The relationship between thoughts and actions
1) A thought appears as an image-thought or talk-thought.
2 ...

Hi ES, just checking in. I have been watching whats going on as I make decisions throughout today, and I have a few observations - that I will post tomorrow. This is quite a difficult and subtle exercise, especially reminding myself to observe whats going on at decision point - instead of just going ...

Okay, I used a couple of coloured paperclips. Then tried it with five different coloured paper clips lined up on a table. These are my observations:

As I see the paperclips lined up, thoughts arise that labels "red", "blue" or whatever colour they are.

There is a sense of anticipation. Something ...

Hi ES.

I have been chcking this out and I can confirm that the vast majority of my actions are performed on auto pilot.

Actions such as taking a sip of water from a glass, moving my body position, driving to work, performing my work duties, looking at my watch, etc are just habitual. I can pretty ...

Yeah, its a bit spooky actually. I will spend today watching this and report back.