Hi Cody,
I would like to give ar more lengthy answer next time and didn't quite find the time yet. I'll write something in the next couple of days. I promise :)

Ben

Will check in on the 7th or 8th of july.

Could take a few days. Spend my days reading the "gateless gatecrashers".

Same situation as yesterday. Will post something every day till i have some time and a real keyboard.

Will try to wright something tomorrow. Only habe smartphone and slow connection right now
Best
Ben

Hi,

I have lots of work today and will be heading to Spain tomorrow. I might need one or two days to answer those questions. I don't know yet how the internet situation is going to be for the next week, but i let you know.

Best
Ben

sorry, accidently hit code instead of quote.

If you have any more comments/questions. Let me know. If not we can move on to the final questions.

Bring it on.

The thought sneaks back in, but it's ALWAYS just a thought. Nothing more. A thought doesn't all of a sudden self real, it's just a thought rising and falling away.


It's a concious ...

If there is nothing, then where is the 'you' in that experience. It's gone, is it not?

yep, its not there. Of course it kinda sneeks back in after three seconds just because it's so used to. but when i directly stare at what's going on, there is no "I". It's kind of a fragile state though and i ...

Today it seemed like the constant stream of thought had gaps. in those gaps there is nothing. I had this feeling a couple of times before. One weird experience always was, that those gaps are accompanied by a fear that i have to give up stuff. give up everything to be precise. Its like a combination ...

But now if it's seen to be just a thought conditioning can start to fall away.

That's happening somehow already. But it is oviously not really seen yet. If it was, there would be a deep sense of relief coming with it, would'nt it?. And Although it totaly makes sense and is ever present in my mind ...

Thanks for your lengthy answer. What can i say, keep "looking". Maybe it clicks one day.

One interesting thing, that maybe won't help a lot but is interesting anyway is the fact, that strong feelings of "self" always happen in connection with people, things and situations, that actualy aren't ...

okay

I once saw a video by Richard Sylvester on youtube, where he said, that there is absolutly nothing that can be done to attain liberation exept for maybe relaxing. Maybe being the emphasized word. Kinda discouraging.

Would you mind to tell me how "it" happend to you?

In my search for a self it ...

I can't really answer that question yet. What is a self anyway? Sometimes it seems that other people and places and the feelings that go with them are as much my self as the inside.