What I mean i saw that which i ordinarily call awareness as just a perception and not me. That was a short glimbse tho because now i'm back with the 'i'. But even so it's like i've dropped another layer of 'me'.

I get so easily distracted with the pain. My mind will jump into any opportunity to try ...

I can't know for sure if it's true due the fact that the story changes a lot depending what situation I'm in. The pain gets different names.

Yesterday I looked really deep into what I call awareness and the I dissappeared from it. I'm now going back and forth between identifying as the awareness ...

It's an emotional pain. I've been keeping myself in isolation for a while and the pain was there but it had a different story attached to it. The story has been that the pain is there because I don't know how to let go of it. Now I've been been in visiting my old life for a couple of weeks and the ...

I'm experincing quite a bit of pain and i'm getting distracted by it. I'm jumping to any distraction to numb it at the moment. Sitting in silence seems unbearable. Can't see anything but this pain now.

When I look a painful feeling i can see it's just that. When i go about my day i connect the ots and it feels like me. The feeling of having a body and the awareness feels like me most of the time like now. Sometimes when i'm just about to fall asleep or in deep meditation there's much less i in it ...

Sorry for responding slowly.

I'm looking at my experiences. I can in moments see that the thoughts in my head are not real. When i really look at them i can see that. When there's a feeling, like the aliveness in the body or pain it's hard for me to see that they are illusionary. I'm at loss for ...

Okay thanks for letting me know. I will be travelling tomorrow myself so won't be to respond either. I will be on limited internet for the next two and a half weeks but will try to post as much as possible anyway.

How to we know they're made up? You cannot see, hear, touch, taste, or smell it. It's impossible.

I feel the center of my body, especially inside my head. This to me feels like me. The one that looks through the eyes. How can I refute it? There is a feeling, the aliveness. There is some pain ...

This is about looking into our experience if there is or isn't a self.

I understand that this is not something I should be looking from the mind but I don't know how to look. And when I don't know how to look, it becomes just another mind thing. I'm spending time looking but I still identify with ...

Okay, I'm getting stuck here. I can't see past the awareness. I just get in a loop of thougths with my mind trying to solve this as a puzzle.

It looks to me that there is still me in the picture. What is consciousness? It looks to me like there are experiences and there is someone watching it.

Yes there is a me. I see it as the awareness, the watcher.

Hey Cody and thank you very much for taking the time to guide me :).

Yes, the reality of the I/me. I am now at a point where I see some of the stories about 'me' as unreal but I want to question the ' I' that I am currently believing in. When I deeply ask 'who am I', the mind answers that I'm that ...

I shall write a little journal entry while I wait for another kind guide to come help me.

I'm now oscillating between basic experiencing or witnessing and unconsciousness. Today I have been witnessing more than unconscious but I seem to hop between the two. It looks like I return back to the ...

Thank you 0kay very much for your help!