hi Sarah,

the language is difficult!
All of this was already the case, it has always already been like this, nothing changed.
There is no "I" that knew or knows anything. It just IS.
It seems almost impossible to write a sentence that makes sense about this.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, no. If I still believed it, it would be really convincing though!

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience ...

Hi Sarah

Nothing is bothered!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO DOUBT!!! At least, no one to have doubt. Doubt does appear.
What remains is everything, literally everything. Including the story of me. Ha!
R.I.P. self

thank you so much for showing ...

Hi Sarah,

Took my time answering -- looking at the truth…

There is no self/experiencer to be found in direct experience. There are a hell of a lot of thoughts about a self/experiencer that tell a very convincing story about a self, but no self.
Nothing controls anything at all. Decisions just ...

Well, "I" am that which notices everything happening, including the thought stories, the getting caught up in thought stories, the stories about future and the thoughts about sensations.

At the moment, frustration at work is happening, and looking for other jobs is happening. This is not a problem ...

Thank you for that Sarah.

The "I" wants something to change because it wants to feel spiritually happy, "enlightened", whatever. It just wants to feel good and have a role to play in making me feel good. It just wants "me" to be happy. Thoughts are: give me something to do, something to change ...

Hi Sarah,
I don't know -- today I seem to be lost. Can't concentrate on any question and feel very, very distant to anything happening. Like I just took the seat at the back in the bus and don't even care where we're going.
Yes, just more thoughts and feelings appearing and passing by. But nothing ...

Thanks Sarah!

Without all these thoughts – would there even be a problem?
Are thoughts the enemy?

Yes, the assumption (thought!) is exercise and diet will go out the window if there is no thinking about them. But diet and exercise also just happen. The decision arises to go to yoga class. The ...

Well yesterday I found myself distracted with lots of thoughts about health, exercise and nutrition. My favorite escape. It is obviously an area “I” am unwilling to let go of (i.e. I keep believing I have to control this part of my life). The thoughts are: If you don’t manage your nutrition and ...

Ok, thanks Sarah, will post results tomorrow.

Are you clear on this now? Keep looking to verify if not! Watch like a cat watches a mouse hole!

Hi Sarah, yes, it is clear. I looked some more at this today. It is all thought and I do not control thought. No way. It is very clear when the planning gets obsessive: I want to stop planning (which ...

Today I was at home and spent time with your question about how much is on autopilot. So, pretty much all of it is. The body is up and about doing things, and I am in my head telling a story about it a split-second afterwards. It is like a movie is playing on TV, and the sound is not entirely ...

Yes indeed! Well noticed. Is the word/label water actually water?

No, the label is not the thing. Labels are just thought/commentary.

What percentage of thoughts was in the future? What percentage was in the past? Roughly!

Maybe 80% about the near future, 20% about the recent past ...

Thank you Sarah, here is my response for the day.

Id like you to just sit for 5-10 minutes with a paper and pen and I want you to record everything you notice from your ‘I’ list. I want you too look at what experiences come up, what actions you notice, what labels you see and WHERE they are ...

How do you think, feel or experience the 'self', 'I' or ‘me’'?
For instance does it feel like it’s in the centre or middle of experience, is it solid or thick, does it feel fixed or permanent, is it inside the body or part of the body, does it change, does it feel uniquely different and separate ...