Dear itstopshere,

Oh, great, thank you very much!!

Yes, I will make sure to enjoy, haha :)

I will send you a PM then!

Dear itstopshere,

Thank you for your reply!

Here follows my answers to the questions:


1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, there is no separate or "real" entity as "self", "me", "I" or any other existence anywhere ...

Dear itstopshere,

There is one thing I have realized since my last post.

I have noticed that I have made a distinction between "real" and "illusion" when it comes to the question about deep sleep, even though there is no such distinction in reality and they are the very same thing actually!

So ...

One correction:

I wrote “That you have haft a good deep sleep“, but correctly, “That you have had a good deep sleep“.

Just in case :)

Dear itstopshere,

Oh, thank you very much for your warm comments! :)


As a matter of fact, there is one thing I would like to get cleared and it´s about deep sleep.

In deep sleep, there is no sensation or knowing at all at the moment. That you have haft a good deep sleep can you be aware of first ...

Dear itstopshere,

Thank you for your reply!


What or who is Persika?

Persika is a name for a series of phenomena including colors, shapes (that looks like a "body"), sounds (what is regarded as "voice"), thoughts, feelings and sensations combined. It appears as if there is someone called ...

Hello again,

After rereading what I wrote yesterday, I noticed that the expression "appearing in front of me" may give an impression as if there are some things (colors, shapes and sensations) appearing there and there is "me" or any other existence looking at them from here, but it is not what I ...

Dear itstopshere,

OK, based on just simple observation in direct experience if I have no memory, body is something that is appearing in front of me.

-About skin-
There is beige color in different shapes (I am describing about "hands" here). They move and as they move, some kind of sensation is ...

Dear itstopshere,

Thank you for your reply and even clarification, now I got it!

So, check: are there "things" you are conscious of, and then a consciousness knowing those things?

No, it feels that the "things" I am conscious of is the very same thing as consciousness/knowing. Hm, it's ...

Sorry for positng again...!

I got it now, so Life is consciouss of itself, so Life itself is Consciousness, right? :)

Hello again,

It came up a question, so I post again :)

I just came to think about that many "teachers" say like "You are Consciousness" and I used to follow that kind of teaching and tried to "be" or "stay" as Consiousness, observing thoughts, feelings, sensations, others and the world.

But as I ...

Dear itstopshere,

So, in your experience, is there anyone observing life in some sense?

No, there is no one observing! It´s a huge difference between how it is felt now and before when I used feel like "I as Consciousness am observing everything". I can see things (as I see this computer screen ...

Dear itstopshere,

Thank you for your reply!

experiences, negative and positive, will keep showing up. In that sense, life is like a wave (like a sound wave). You cannot have highs without lows. Life would get bored with itself ;)

Aha, I see! It´s like music, right? There can´t be any music if ...

Hello again itstopshere,

There is one thing resolved today, so I post again :)

I looked into the fear of getting hurt by "other people" today. At first, the fear seemed quite overwhelming, but I then wondered "what would happen if I would get hurt?", then I looked very carefully. Then, I realized ...

Dear itstopshere,

Oh, thank you very much for your warm comments, it's very encouraging!!!

I look forward to your advice and meanwhile, I continue looking at my fear part :)