So either just do it - for the sake of itself - because you enjoy it, and it naturally comes to you, or - well - investigate your motives and basis for engaging in meditation, or any other so called spiritual practice or path

Yeah. That's where I'm at. I haven't meditated in a while and I did so ...

Seems that we have come a long way, since we started this conversation - and yet we haven't really gone anywhere at all, right?

Yes. Like I said, I re-read my ramblings and can't even swallow them after a while. I've stopped journaling. After all this 'hit' I looked back at all my (~2 years) of ...

I think I've been hesitating to say "I" am anything, but really, "I" am the awareness. So, no, I'm not the body.

But that's weird.

It feels like its all semantics anyway. What the hell do words mean? I'm just at peace and ok with things. Oddly, I've been 'here' for a while; I only wasn't when my ...

In direct experience: is there even a body - interacting with a world? Or are there only perceptions and sensations - and thoughts about 'body' (be it 'mine' or 'other'), 'world' and 'interacting'?


In direct experience there is no body, no world. I concede that. Yes. I think it will take some ...

Sorry it's taken a few days.

So, I've been poking around some Rupert Spira stuff. It's funny how when I was 'searching' some things resonated (whether or not I truly grasped them is another story) and some things didn't 'do much' for me. I never really 'got' Rupert Spira.

This second time around I ...

It is not uncommon to see through the false self, but somehow continue believing in the objective existence of a body with a brain and a mind - and subtly identifying as that.

Yeah, I think I'm in this space. I've gone back to the Greg Goode book. I will not over-think it, I will just do some ...

Will get back to you on these. I have answers but I am pondering the implications of what this all means... probably better to answer after thinking a bit...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, there is no "I." "I" am not a "me." There is no entity 'inside' deciding things. There wasn't ever.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how ...

Have you ever watched the movie "Memento?" I feel like that guy right now at the end of the movie...

By 'positive' (real nature) I mean THAT which IS / YOU really ARE - rather than all those things that you are NOT (= negative), such as a separate self, a person, a body with a brain and a mind, and so on...
Wanna have a go at that?

Hmmm... I guess I'd have to say that "I" am just part of this ...

Hope everything is OK Dirk. Another caravan trip? No rush, just checking in. I reread this thread (well, the parts that I could palate lol). Interesting to see 'my' mind at work. Busy, busy, busy in these little self-centered circles. Like activity for activity's sake. I'm reading Jed McKenna. It's ...

If I'm not a 'me' then I'm not separate from anything. Its all one thing. Yes, I was waiting for things to 'change.' Of course nothing will change. I just know, that's all. And I can go about my daily business, or I can stop and ponder what this means. Right now I'm on a bench pondering, because ...

Great. So now that you have looked through the illusion of a separate self - how would you discribe what actually IS going on? How would you discribe your positive, real nature - in your own words?
Be as creative as you like, an have fun with this!

ok. What's really going on: a baby is born and ...

I will. What do you mean by 'positive?'

How about just knowing no self to be the case, and to let appearances appear the way they appear - and then leave it all at that?

That sounds about right. :)

Thanks.

Calbert