Dear Pea

I'm deeply grateful for your support in this Journey! Thank you so much for being my Guide, you've done a fantastic job.

I'll look forward to hearing from LU and see what's in store next. I'm excited to see how life will unfold from here.

Blessings on your journey Pea!

Joel

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

Not that I can find or have found at all in our time together. Was there ever - well no...only the illusion of a separate self in the form of narratives and stories.

2) Explain in detail ...

Good morning Pea

Much gratitude for your last message which did cut through beliefs and assumptions I was holding onto.

So let’s look at this – do it with doubt, as it arises. Watch the interplay – sensation arising in the body, thoughts and feelings dancing together, story being created – keep ...

After I wrote my last message I went to make tea and caught a thought arising "yes, if I'm awake then that means I'm special". As I caught it it dissolved but it was disturbing as I believed it for a moment.

Are there any doubts at all about seeing through the illusion of the separate self ...

And thanks so much for your time and support Pea!

And then I wonder what was it that had me want to thank you, to express my gratitude....just an impulse that simply arose.

with gratitude

Joel

Ok. Have another look, is there anywhere - any little nook or cranny - where this elusive self could be hiding? Are there any stones we have left unturned?
If not, what is this hesitation?
Is there a story attached to it? Is it just a story? Have a look, and a listen - see what comes forth...

I ...

Hey Pea

Good day to you...

I've been investigating based on your invitations.

Does the lack of controller mean that there is no care or compassionate response?

Actually there is care and a compassionate response. Today I was with a friend who was upset. I was feeling a lot of tenderness and ...

Hey Pea

Hope you're doing well today!

I've been spending time today looking for an entity that is a controller. I must say I can't find one. Yet somehow I can't let go of the idea that there is some degree of control I have. Otherwise it feels very nihilistic. Like what's the point in having goals ...

Hi Pea

Not as early as I hoped but hear I am.

I have been paying attention to my experience as I move through out my day. The feeling of non-separation has been more prominent. It is a sense of no-boundary and feels very normal yet there has been a lot of ease. There is a feeling of there being no ...

Hey Pea

Doing great thanks. Been in a workshop all day till now.

So, can you feel your ears? Or can you just feel sensation, and then thought adds a label of “ears” afterwards, based on a conceptual understanding of what ears are and where they are situated?

I see what you mean. I don't feel my ...

Good morning Pea!

Can it be known how tall the body is?
Does the body have a weight or a volume?
Is there a boundary between the body and the ground?
Can you feel where the body ends?
Can you feel your ears?


Some of these I can say yes. Like can I feel my ears. I can feel sensation where my ...

Hey Pea - I am more energised today thanks

Take a look, again in DE, at the process of sensations, perception, thoughts, stories. How does that happen?How does that happen? Is there Joel there, lurking in the shadows - a thinker of thoughts, a creator of stories, OR is there just thinking?

I ...

Hey Pea!

When you say "I", what does that refer to in direct experience? Please describe in detail – does it have a shape? Size? A quality? Where do you experience this "I"?

When I look in my direct experience I can't find anything distinct that I could say the experience is happening to. As I ...

It would be interesting and helpful to know a little more about your path to this point, what you're referring to re "temporary" experiences...

Many times I've explored my experience of who am I or what am I. I've never discovered any entity that I could point to as an independently existing self ...

and also forgot to check 'notify' button. Which I've done now....