Hi Sandra,
Thank you! This is exciting! I don't have a Facebook account, but maybe I'll have to set one up.
Peace~
Jennie

Hi Sandra,

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
I'm not sure what you are asking here, so I don't know how to answer!

5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples ...

Hi Sandra,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
There is no separate self when I am looking right now. I cannot find or locate a separate entity that is a "me".

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is ...

Hi Sandra,
Thanks for waiting for me to answer. :)

Is this presence a self? A real, separate, objective, permanent you?
No, not at all. It is not a self and it is not separate. I don't know what it is.

Would you say you're 100% sure that a real, separate, objective, permanent you doesn't exist ...

I'm still here, Sandra, I just need a little more time for answering.
Warmly, Jennie

Hi Sandra,

Have you been able to find, a ‘self’ that is the ‘experiencer’?
No. I have not been able to find a "self" that is the experiencer. But there is a feeling of experience. I don't feel separate from the experience.

Or a self that is the doer, or can control what happens?
No, no self ...

If it isn't possible to see what is seeing now, are you expecting to see what is seeing later?
Good point!

What makes you think there is a seer?
A deep-set feeling of "seer"... of knowing how it feels to see. "I" know how it feels to see/am aware of seeing.

Other than thoughts about a seer is ...

Hi Sandra,
What changed - if anything - since we started talking?
There haven't been any major changes since we started talking-- there is just now with me, a continual looking inward to see what is seeing, maybe. There is more of an abidance as the background, the awareness.

Do you think ...

Hi Sandra,
Do you see a thought thinking? What can you see thinking?
The thinking just happens. I can see nothing and no one thinking. Thoughts pop into existence and it seems the identification with them is often simultaneous.

Can you find this "I" in the looking, this witness, that a thought ...

Anyway, lets say an answer pops up - some thoughts explaining what this IS and why it is like THIS. Can you see that thoughts give you only a point of view, a way of making sense of reality? That what is believed to be true is always changing, according with what you hear, read, think about?
Yes I ...

Hi Sandra,

Well, it seems you are looking to what you are, instead of looking for a separate self :)
Yes, some of both. I am wondering, if I am not a separate self as I thought I was, than what am I...

jennie wrote:I would say I still often feel like I have control over this body/mind.
sandra ...

Also, when I look into my eyes in the mirror, sometimes I can sense an unfathomable depth there. And also, great tenderness, love and compassion. I don't know what is looking.

Thanks for the questions and guiding Sandra! I appreciate you helping me keep momentum.

So, what can I actually see that is this "I"?

I'm not sure. I am looking. I feel my heartbeat speeding up (I don't know if that is fear). I also feel some sadness arising. I know I am not the sadness. I am not ...

Hi Sandra, Thanks for posting the text to that link.

If they're your thoughts, why don't they go the way you would prefer?
They're not my thoughts. "I" am not choosing and thinking them. I see this now, again.

What can you actually SEE that is a you? Make a list, please.
Right now, nothing ...

Hi Sandra,
Would you say that both "me" and "not me" are pointers, concepts that make what IS here and now seem divided, made of parts? A "hand" "here", a "tree" "there", an "other" walking at the "street", a "bird" flying in the "sky", a "thought story" about a "me"?
Yes, I can see this. I can ...