Ok mark I got that private message and sent you on a private message,thanks

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Thanks mark

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5.Deciding,intending,choosing and controlling are all ideas that the invented false self personality is made up of,there all based on thought,and conditioned thought,if the body is hungry a thought of food comes into the mind,then more thoughts come into the mind of a pleasure it would be to eat ...

3.It feels like there is a flow of life everywhere and there's no me,I,or self, whereas before there seemed to be a seperate self made up of thoughts and ideas of a self made up from concepts and assumptions
4.when I finally got tired of protecting the false idea of a self it made me look for truth ...

6.Yes that's correct I meant the body and brain are used to rely sensations so sensations can be experienced with the senses but from first hand experience they can't be found they are just labels (t)

1,no there never was when looking past all the illusions
2.the illusion is the falsely joining ...

1.Was looking and couldn't find a real self,just a thought and concept process that has invented a story of paul, (t)there is no self that is experiencing

2.could not find a self that is a doer,no real decisions are being made,if something has to be done it is based on outside influences,and no ...

There's no route to look down,there's no seeking,everything seems fine

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Can we go down a different route I don't understand how I can do your instructions

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I can't do it,it's to hard

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Yeah it feels like a depressed sinking feeling with a dash of dread,felt it on my stomach

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Well I suppose it's all my expectations,but I've accepted that the expecting will not be met and I'm ready to look from direct experience and drop the expectations,I guess even if the notions and concepts are dropped the emotions can still remain and linger

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Just ordinary sensations all over my body,My body feels normal,nothing happens when reading the questions,just feel a sinking feeling of disappointment for nearly all the questions lol

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1. Yeah it give the impression of a me,I ego that's empty of being real
well the feeling give an impression of a self,even if false
2.the ego is a false personality conception made up by the mind and thoughts,it's not real so can't be felt or known it's just the thoughts body and conceptual thinking ...

Well I'm feeling sensations all over body,feeling alive,feeling confused because it feels like I need to end the ego and self and 'I' and see through the illusion of a self ego and I

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Ok I've reread the 18 is nots, I feel calm and understand them all except number 11,I feel confused when I read number eleven,my expectation which is left is to see through the illusion of a self so that it will soften my attachment to an 'i' 'ego' belief in a self

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