Thanks for your detailed response. Good work.
It seems that you did understand this: so it is the sense of watching, touching, seeing. It is something always there. Another way to find this sense is to ask: "what does it feel like, right now, to be 'me'". It is a case of getting still, and staying with the sense of actually being. Not thinking, but just being. Yes, there are the 5 senses, and there can be an intuitive sense below also, like a compass. But don't take my word for it: I would like you to discover these for yourself.Sit with your eyes closed and feel the 'aliveness' of just being Alex.
I didn't understand what you mean with this "aliveness".
Yes, it is something always there. There are no sensations involved, just a kind of "blankness". It is neutral, just watching, touching, seeing.
Please get still and sit again for 10 minutes, and note down all that comes up in the present moment, in the immediate. Then please let me have a list, even if the words are approximations.
Yes, this is impossible to prove. As you say, 'Alex' comes up only in thought. Tell me if it is any different.Can you prove (in experience) that there is any 'me' there separate from the sensations?
This is impossible to prove.
skhizein+phrenos = split+mind. But we are not splitting the mind. We are taking a sort of sharp sword and splitting between the busy, conceptualising mind, which has thought it was in charge of 'my' life, splitting between this and Life itself, felt in the immediate senses, which just IS with no apology. Yes, 'minding', 'Alex'ing would like to overlook and devalue the immediate Life experience, which is and has always been right under the nose. OF COURSE! Fear of losing the familiar controls. Fear of the unknown. Dealing with concepts rather than with Life directly.This schizophrenia is surprising.
But if LIFE is hunting down this illusion of 'me', what can be done!!? If LIFE is revealing the truth, what can be denied? If it was really always this way, how can the pretence of a mind driving the show, how can that be maintained (without laughing or some other response) once it is starting to be seen through?