I'm surprised its this early.
I have seen analyzers take a long long time...
to finally let go of the idea that they could think their way to this.
That's really good. You must have let go of something big.
Here's what my good friend Liz wrote to one of her people just today,
how fitting it is for you right now:
Ah, they warned us of this. You receive for awakening: Absolutely Nothing.
They, the ones who have gone before, were not kidding.
It's a shock to the meaning-making system.
It tries to race the engine of meaning-manufacture. It sticks ME ME ME all over the thought landscape.
But you have seen it, and however disappointing it is to identity, that's it.
Yes, this is so damn simple and easy. We can't grasp its this simple.
I've been saying something like, "There's no I, just what's going on"
and a good friend of mine shortened it... "No I, just this".
Thats it. In a nutshell. Really!
Nothing to get. Nothing to really understand.
Just a letting go.
Yes there's just a subtle shift. Some people do have some fireworks or a heart opening feeling.
Spacious, open, freeing. A definite relaxing of this search. We know deeply there are no
ultimate answers. Just life. flowing. As it is. As it always has been. Even when we weren't
awake at all.
So go ahead and answer your own question here. Give it your best shot.There is no I, the 'I' we conventionally use is a label that is supposed to give meaning to the collection of thoughts, feelings, memories, habits that just are. When I try to see the 'owner' of these things, there is nothing to be found. I see that now, but there's still a gap for me.. what is it that needs to be recognized as 'I' or 'self'? I can see that there's nothing there, but is the wanting to label it purely based in thought? Does the thinking feel the need to construct a thinker? I'm sorry if I'm going in circles here.
I have no doubt you have the answer that you want already.
Haha. you've been doing what everyone thinks they should do. Read books like the Secret and all thatThis is actually pretty unsettling for me to be honest. Getting a glimpse of the truth just by looking makes me question what it is I've been doing and looking for for these past few years. It's definitely not what I expected, but not necessarily in a bad way. I think this last part of your post gave me the answer to my question above. The wanting to label as 'I' or 'self' is based in thinking, which makes it just a thought and not something that thinks. It's a harsh reality check, thank God I didn't expect it to be like a warm shower, smelling like roses and magically be freed from every fear and limiting belief I have, because then I would be really disappointed. This is good, it's honest and it's true.
kind of stuff instead of really LOOKING. We all did it. We thought we had to GET something, when the
truth is we had this all along. It's been right in front of our noses our whole life.
How could we really know it was this simple?
Sorry. We're not going to give you your money back! No refunds here.
Just be with this for awhile and come back and tell what its like for you.
Let me know if there's anything unresolved.
I'm very happy for you!