No self

[Maylson]

Dear Amrit, how are you, my friend?

I just received your words and I want you to know that I am here, reading them with care. I am touched by what you shared. Missing your sister, feeling sadness and grief... this is completely natural. Nothing is wrong in that. Longing is love appearing as ache, as a wave moving through the body!

When you stop for a moment and notice, you may feel it right in the chest, in the eyes, in the breath. This is life moving now. Not in the past, not in the future, but here.

What we call birth and death may seem like someone coming and going, but it is only life changing shapes and forms. Like the ocean forming a wave that rises and then dissolves back, your sister was never apart from what you are. She has not gone anywhere outside of THIS.

So there is no need to choose between openness and longing. Both belong, both are already part of life as it unfolds. The tears, the silence, the love... they are all life happening right now.

I would be glad to sit with you and look more closely at what shows up in you, not as an idea but as this very moment. What do you feel most called to explore more deeply together?
I am with you, my friend, in this same here and now.

[Maylson]

Hey my friend!

I hope this message finds you well. I have been thinking of you and wondering how life has been moving for you lately. I know sometimes the heart needs its own time, and that is perfectly okay.

I just wanted to let you know that I am here, and if you feel like sharing or exploring anything together, I would be glad to sit with you. Even small moments, even just noticing what is present, can be enough.

If you feel called, I would love to hear what you most want to explore or feel right now.

[AmritSG]

Dear May,

I want you to know that I have received your 2 messages/replies.

I am so grateful to hear that you are willing to sit with me and to look more closely at what is showing up in me.

There are certainly feelings or emotions that are coming up quite often...even feelings of anxiety, restlessness, of needing to hurry or rush in daily life because of an apparent 'lack of time or not enough time'...so there is a general and intense sense of being overwhelmed by life...these bouts of overwhelm and worry and anxiety come up particularly during my sleep at night these last 2 months....so it prevents a deep restful sleep. There can be an intense feeling of claustrophobia when I am overtaken by these thought or beliefs and feelings/emotions. There is an underlying feeling of foreboding and intense discomfort that something bad is about to happen...yes...in the near future. That life may fall apart for me or that I may fall apart or that I may have a mental breakdown....during these intense episodes...i feel really overwhelmed...i want to jump out of my skin so to speak!! It can be unbearable if I am being honest, my dear friend May.

Can you please sit with me ever so patiently and gently and lovingly....and guide me through this time of intense discomfort. This period since my elder sister's passing on July 12 has been confusing and disorienting as well....like I am passing through a severe storm and dont know anymore where I am going or who I am anymore!! Sometimes it gets very dark here and I cannot see or feel the light that I am. Can you please help me my dear friend?🙏

I am in need of your guidance, my dearest friend, as I have no one else to turn to. 🙏

Thank you for being with me and sitting with me my dear May.

I look forward to hearing back from you.

With love and gratitude,
Amrit💜💜🙏🙏🪻🪻

[Maylson]

Hi, Amrit!

I hear you, my friend. All that you describe... the rushing, the tightness, the fear of breaking... it can feel unbearable when it comes. I want you to know that even this storm is already appearing within the openness that you are. Nothing needs to be pushed away or solved in advance.

When the anxiety rises and you feel trapped, notice this: sensations come and go, thoughts come and go, but the simple knowing of them does not come and go. The fear says “I will collapse”... yet here you are, aware of that fear, reading these words. This awareness itself is not collapsing.

There is nothing wrong with the sadness, the sleepless nights, the panic when it comes. I am not saying this to dismiss your pain, I know it feels heavy and overwhelming. What I mean is that you do not need to fight these feelings or try to fix them, because they are already allowed to be exactly as they are. Just as waves rise and fall in the ocean, these experiences rise and fall in the openness that you are.

You don’t need to carry them as a burden or see them as a sign that something is broken. They are simply movements of life, already held by something larger than the story of “me” and “my life.”

Feel free to bring whatever is here for you, in any form, at any time. Nothing is too much or too little. I am with you.

[AmritSG]

Namaste Dear May,

Thank you for your most recent message my dear friend!

It is still resonating and resounding within my being as I am writing this message to you. I have been reading your last message over and over and over again and again...and again.

Your every word, every phrase, every sentence rings with such power...the power of openness, presence, the simple knowing that you are pointing to which is never changing and yet.....which can also appear as thoughts, feelings, sensations.

The rushing, the restlessness, the tightness, the fear of breaking...of falling apart, the feeling of being trapped...stuck, the sadness, grief, the sleepless nights, the panic attacks...all these are not to be resisted....these experiences rise and fall in the openness that I am.

"Feel free to bring whatever is here for you, in any form, at any time. Nothing is too much or too little. I am with you." Your words are truly palpable, dear friend! I feel and sense the openness that you are, my dear May, and the openness that I am. I know you are with me as this transparent openness. I am so deeply grateful for the light of your openness.

I know and feel you are with me.

Amrit💜🙏🪻🙂

[Maylson]

Hi, Amrit! How are you right now?

I feel your words, they carry the same stillness that they are pointing to. What you describe is already this openness expressing itself as gratitude, as recognition, as life speaking to itself.

There is no distance between what is felt there and what is felt here. This exchange, these words, even the silence between them... all of it is the same movement.

What you are calling “May” and what you call “I” are not two. It’s just this openness meeting itself in different shapes, like one wave meeting another and realizing it was never apart from the ocean.

Whatever arises... tenderness, gratitude, fear, or stillness... it’s all already held. Nothing needs to be managed or maintained.

I’m glad you shared this. You can always write, with or without words, with or without clarity. Everything is welcome here.

[Maylson]

Hi Amrit,

Just wanted to say I’m here, and whatever arises for you is welcome, whenever you’re ready to share.

With warmth 💜

[Maylson]

Hi Amrit,

Just wanted to say I’m here, and whatever arises for you is welcome, whenever you’re ready to share.

With warmth 💜

[AmritSG]

Hi May,

Thank you for your three most recent messages which I received with deepest gratitude. I am blessed indeed to have you, first and foremost, as a friend. Please know that I truly cherish your guidance and friendship...they are godsend!

The restlessness, confusion, loneliness, even desolation, and sadness and grief, have been rising and falling like waves through this unchanging openness or spaciousness these last two weeks. These feelings, intense as they may be, come and go but the simple knowing of them does not come or go.

I read your messages repeatedly and it takes some time for me to digest or assimilate them, to undress your powerful and penetrating pointers so that the stillness underneath and between your words and sentences is uncovered. This is why it takes some time for me to be able to respond to your messages.🙏

Each and every experience is a movement of thought and feeling in this openness and is not to be resisted.

Your words are still resonating as such...."Feel free to bring whatever is here for you, in any form, at any time. Nothing is too much or too little. I am with you."

Two emptiness-es meeting and merging....when there is only ONE...and without a second!

With all my warmth and love💜🙋‍♂️

Amrit

[Maylson]

Hey Amrit! How are you today? How are you righ now? :)

What you describe, the waves of grief, restlessness, loneliness... all rising and falling, is already being noticed. Even the sense of being someone moving through all this is just another part of the same flow.

It’s natural that after your sister’s passing, the feeling of “me” came back stronger. The mind looks for something solid when everything feels uncertain. But even that trying to hold on is noticed, isn’t it? It appears and moves like everything else.

What you are never went anywhere, not before, not after her passing. What shows up as confusion, sadness, or calm, all belong to the same unfolding.

You don’t need to push anything away or try to fix what’s here. Not because it doesn’t matter, but because nothing that appears is separate from what’s already happening.

If you feel like it, we can look together at what makes the sense of “I” feel real when these emotions arise.

And as always, you can bring whatever is here.. just as it is.

[AmritSG]

Dear May,

Thank you for your most recent message.

I read it with care and attention.

"If you feel like it, we can look together at what makes the sense of “I” feel real when these emotions arise."

Yes please, dear May, can we look together and investigate and inquire. This would be most helpful indeed.

With warmth,

Amrit

[AmritSG]

Dear May,

What you wrote in your most recent email rings true!

Here are your words...."It’s natural that after your sister’s passing, the feeling of “me” came back stronger. The mind looks for something solid when everything feels uncertain. But even that trying to hold on is noticed, isn’t it?"

"We can look together at what makes the sense of "I" feel real when these emotions arise."

I am ready and waiting to do this with your heartfelt and sincere guidance.

Amrit🙋‍♂️💜🙏

[Maylson]

Hey Amrit,

I’m glad you feel ready to look together. Let’s move gently.

When restlessness, fear, or sadness arise, can you notice what makes it feel personal?
What gives the impression that it’s happening to someone?

Look slowly: is there an actual “you” somewhere inside the feeling, or is there just the raw movement, tightness, trembling, a thought saying “I’m anxious,” “I can’t handle this”?

Before the thought “this is happening to me,” what’s really here?
Just sensations, sounds, breath, the simple pulse of life moving, right?

There’s no need to change anything. The invitation is only to see whether the “I” that seems to be in the middle of the storm can actually be found, or if there’s just the storm itself passing through.

Moments of loss often feel like everything solid has fallen apart, as if the ground beneath your feet has vanished. But that collapse is not against you; it’s a clear opening. When what felt like a foundation crumbles, it reveals that there was never really a floor to stand on. Just the vast movement of life, shifting, dissolving, forming again.

This is a fertile ground for seeing, not because it’s peaceful or pleasant, but because it leaves nothing to hold on to.
What remains when nothing can be held? What’s here, even in the midst of grief?

Take your time with this. There’s no right answer to reach, only the simple noticing of what’s already here.

And as always, feel free to share what you find, however it shows up.

[AmritSG]

Hello May,

I received your most recent message. Thank you for your clear guidance in helping me to look at or notice what's already here.

"The invitation is only to see whether the "I" that seems to be in the middle of the storm can actually be found, or if there's just the storm itself passing through."

Is the "I" the non existant ghost in the system? The non existant separate self?🙏

I am taking the time to look more deeply at this in my direct experience. And will come back to you.

With warmth and gratitude,

Amrit🙋‍♂️💜

[Maylson]

Hey!

Take your time! No hurry at all!

Have a nice weekend ❤️