Can you please provide me with more examples of AE from your daily activities, emotions etc. I would like to make sure that you are clear about AE.
When I hold a heavy object, there is the thought about it being heavy, and there is the AE : sensation.
When I listen to a song, there is a thought about the meaning of the lyrics, and there is the AE of the lyrics/melody : sound.
When the wind blows into my face, there is the thought about it being the wind, and there is the AE : sensation, which has nothing to do with wind, the wind is only a thought that arises after the AE.
Same with pain, if I pinch myself I feel 'pain' , but that's just a thought arising after the AE of sensation.
How are sounds and sensations, thoughts? A sensation can’t be thought, nor can a sound? Sometimes you hear a song on the radio on your way to work or while you are cooking or doing something, and that song can stay with you all day. The song seems to play over and over again. All the intricate details are there. All the lyrics, all the notes in the guitar solo are as clear as when it was playing out of the car speakers. But is there really music playing - a singer singing and a guitarist playing, or is there simply thoughts about sound?
The same goes for sensation. Can a sensation be thought? How does that happen exactly? If you think the thought ‘fear’, is that the actual sensation or is that just a thought about a sensation?
Sound/Touch/Smell/Seeing are not thoughts, but thoughts come in all those forms, I cannot think a sensation into existence, a thought is always a thought until it disappears. When a thought about a song arises, I am actually hearing the song, it's not playing in the room, but I am hearing it, and it is sound.
The thought about fear is not fear, it's just a thought about another thought named 'fear', which refers to a sensation that has nothing to do with 'fear', it's just a sensation.
"Here is a cup" is the thought; the ensuing thoughts of what a cup is and does, what it is made from etc are the content of that thought. What do those thoughts point to exactly? Do they point to colour, taste, smell, sensation or sound? Or do they simply point to actual experience of thought and thought only?
Those thoughts point to other thoughts, right now I am imagining a cup, if I break it in my mind, and I see what it is made of, another thought arises, if I Imagine cutting myself with a piece of the broken cup, blood and pain, it's just another thought, I'm not feeling anything. I begin to see that thoughts are trapped in their world, they can only refer to other thoughts, and not to actual sensations, because they cannot invoke them.
So thoughts and mental images are actual experience only as arising thoughts (words and mental image), their ‘presence’ cannot be denied. However their contents, what they are about, what they are pointing to (like the cup) are not ‘real’, they are just fantasies. Can you see this?
Yes, if I think about a memory, I am not living the actual experience of that time, I'm only experiencing a thought. Thoughts are always about themselves.
Thoughts link to other thoughts and so on, they never escape this cycle, if a thought makes me feel the sensation of fear, fear is just another thought that says something about the sensation and it being generated by the thought. But the sensation is not what thought pointed to, thought points only to other concepts.
I begin to see this, it's not very clear though..
Over the course of the next day or so, I'd like you to notice the content of thoughts. Whenever there is an arising thought or mental image, check whether its content (what it’s about, what it is pointing to) is REALLY happening, or the content is just pure imagination. Let me know how it goes.
Like I said above, all thoughts point to other thoughts, all their contents are thoughts. If I think about typing and the sensation of typing on the keyboard,it doesn't point to the actual sensation, it doesn't make me feel the actual sensation of typing on the keyboard, but it invokes memories which are thoughts.
Without thought, how is it known that the sensations are something called “resistance”?
It is not known, because resistance is a thought about an actual sensation.
Does the sensation itself suggest in any way that it is “resistance”?
The sensation just is, but the thoughts are fast to label it, and it makes it hard to make the distinction between the actual sensation and 'resistance'.
Does the sensation itself suggest in any way that it knows anything about “resistance”?
No it doesn't.
So what is known is label + sensation + colour + thoughts, but is “resistance’ actually known?
Resistance is not known, Feeling is known, Thinking is known, resistance is a thought, there is no true resistance happening, only a labeled sensation.
Put thought aside and look - what is the “feelings” qualities that makes you associate it with a "you"? There is an ‘presence’, for want of a better way of saying it, that is always apparent, but what makes that 'presence’ a separate self called Anders? Can you pinpoint what that feeling would be/is, or is it a thought about a feeling of an I?
There is a feeling in the chest of being here, and in the head. A thought about Anders follows, I'm trying hard but I cannot point to that 'I'. It's even hard to describe it, sensation cannot be described because I can only use thought to write this, and thought only points to thought. It's like there is nothing to grasp, there is sensation, there are thoughts, there is a feeling of being here, there is a thought about an 'I', I'm trying to see that 'I'.
Does the sense of self have a location?
No, it is a thought.
Does the sense of self have a shape or a size?
No shape and no size.
Does the sense of self say or communicate anything?
I don't know... I can't even find the sense of self... it's so elusive.
Does the sense of self have any characteristics or attributes?
It's changing, it's coming and going, it's more like a thought than anything else..
What is the sense of self ‘made of’? An image? Sound? Taste? Smell? Sensation? Thought?
One moment it is a sound, another moment it becomes and image, it's a combination of different thoughts, but the actual experience of it is thought