This intention looking is really difficult. It again feels like staring into empty space... my answers are below.
Question, look. Question, look. You can even comment on saying ‘not the me’ when it’s seen that for example the sensation in the chest is just a sensation. Let me know how it goes.
Yes it does get easier. Nothing major happens but there is a moment of realization, a flash of awareness that 'I' am not doing this. I came to realize that these exercises are great because they create a distance between 'me' and the thoughts. Every time I do them I realize 'I' am not the thoughts, or rather, the thoughts are not 'me'. This seems very good.
Lie down onto a bed. Observe very carefully how the decision arises to get up. Can a self be found making the body leave the bed?
No, not when I look closely. If I just spontaneously get up, it feels like 'I' am doing it, but when I observe, it's not the case.
Where does the "decision", the "command" to get up comes from?
A thought arose which said ‘let’s get up’
What makes the body get up?
The truth is, I don’t know. The thought in itself didn’t make the body get up. The thought said ‘let’s get up’ but I kept lying there. If I weren’t busy looking, i.e. under normal circumstances, the body would just obey automatically. But now that I was looking, nothing happened. I find it pretty much impossible to ‘look’ and act at the same time.
Ultimately what happened was there was another thought that said ‘now you will get up’ and then I did.
Is there a ‘you’ that commands the body?
When lying there, shout 'GET UP' internally as loudly as you can. Does that affect the outcome?
No. My body cringed at ‘hearing’ the shout but it didn’t move.
Repeat this with sitting in a chair. Describe in detail the decision of standing up. How does the decision happen exactly?
There’s a thought, which seems to appear out of nowhere, and which says ‘now we’ll get up’. and then the body obeys.
Does a self come in and take over, weighing pros and cons, looking at possible consequences? Or does standing up just happen, or not, without any doer?
I didn’t see a self coming in. It’s much more of an automated process.
What makes the body to stand up?
I can’t find the thing that actually makes it get up.
Now let’s investigate intention. Sit in a chair and observe how the intention of standing up happens. How is it known that there is an intention to stand up?
I read your instructions, and in response to that the thought arose ‘let’s get up’.
In another case, the thought arose ‘I want to get up’. It’s like an internal voice speaking to me.
While sitting there, say internally several times ‘I intend to get up’. What happens? What is it that made the intention to get up?
No, saying the words in itself didn’t give me the intention. The words are just a phrase and had no impact. Somehow the actual intention seems to be something separate from the words but I can't locate it.
When I first said the phrase though, the body almost obeyed and began to stand. So when I’m not looking, this process seems totally automatic and just ‘hearing’ the words is enough for the body to obey.
Now, zoom in onto the intention (of getting up) very closely. Look at the intention itself directly. Stare at the intention itself. Not the thoughts of “I intend to get up”, but THE intention itself. Can you locate THE intention itself? How is the intention actually experienced?
No. That’s exactly what I have found. I don’t know where it is, but it’s not in the words. I can’t find the intention itself.