everything is totally clear.
If you investigate these thoughts, is it possible that these are also about the ‘me’ in a hidden way?
3, 4 were “other” like “the event this evening? "Will it be ok, will people enjoy it?".
For example: I am the one who is thinking about the event, because I will be there, and I expect certain things to happen or not happen.
OR when it seems that the thought is about others whether they will enjoy it – is also about ‘me’, since I want them to enjoy the event, because I will feel in a certain way if they don’t, etc.
Almost every thought, if not all, is about the self. Sometimes it might not be as obvious, but when looked at it a bit more closely, it turns out that this ‘narrating mind’ is always about me (some way or another).
Actually, these narrating thoughts create the illusion of the self.
These thoughts describes ‘what I am’.
They describe my past, present and future.
They produce a story of my life.
They describe how I feel, and what I have to do.
They describe what things in the world and others mean to me and can give to me.
These thoughts define who I am and what is my relationship to the world.
Please contemplate the above sentences. Let me know what comes up.
I've noticed also that in the first seconds it tooked time while I was waiting for a thought. There was a little gap between the toughts.
Yes, exactly! There are gaps between thoughts, but usually we don’t notice them.
Since the seeming I ‘lives’ in thoughts. So no thoughts, no me.
Some of them are repetitive, some are just explaining something, yes, there is judgement for the situation, one thought is coming to explain the current situation. And most of them, refer to "me" in the current situation. wow..
According to some studies, humans have about 70,000 thoughts per day. And about 90-95% of them are recycled. They are the same day after day. We are full of conditioned patterns, thoughts, and conditioned reactions. But usually we are unaware of them. But you can aware of these repeating patters if you pay close attention to thoughts during the day. It can be both shocking and freeing.
Here is an interesting exercise.
Go and make a cup of tea or coffee. As you do this notice whether a 'self' does it. Also notice if there are many or any moments in the whole procedure of going to the kettle, switching it on, getting the cup (etc) when 'you' control the process?
How the decision is made what to make a cup of tea or coffee?
Do ‘you’ choose putting or not putting milk into the tea (or coffee)?
Is there a moment of choice or it happens automatically?
Do ‘you’ 'make the cup of tea (or coffee) happen' or it just happens?
Can a chooser be located?