So, yesterday was the clearest 'seeing' so far. Then the illusion returns and it's like the brain forgets some of what it learnt. Of course, can an illusion return? It never existed.
Causality is indeed worth questioning. What is causing this very moment to appear?
Well, in direct experience, there's no time. Time is another concept. There's a sense of the flow of experience. If there were no change in either thoughts or sensory experience, there would be no sense of time. Does a rock know time? Only the observer notes the weathering of the rock, and that creates a sense of time for the observer. Or to say it better, the weathering is the sense of time. From that perspective, it almost seems like cause-and-effect create time. And worth remembering that the rock is not seen--only its appearance in consciousness--more colourful form.
But to remain talking about cause and effect doesn't quite seem right. Because what the heck is cause? What the heck is effect? More concepts. What causes this moment to appear? In a sense, the moment itself! No subject, no object. But going lower to experience, it might be more like that a flow of sensations appears--more form, more emptiness. Going back to the rock, just the weathering as more seeing--the thing itself, really.
But in the moment? A moment implies time. What the heck is a moment? What the heck is a now? It's all as one, all as it will be. Time is the perceived experience, but it's more like timelessness. Is this why Einstein made light the clock of the universe rather than time? (Hah! Really need to remember to not be one of those spiritual people trying to equate their experience with physics!)
Isn't even a moment based on a dualistic perspective? How long is it? About as short as can be perceived, but that implies a perceiver. And what we're talking about is the perceiving
. Jed McKenna is coming back to me now: perceiver, perception/perceiving, perceived--all one. We don't notice the grass growing; it's too slow. Form is the perception of time, but from this perspective of direct experience, perhaps all times are one. All is timelessness. Another form, another face.
Can causation be found in experience or is causation an idea about how things (are supposed to) happen?
Causation is the idea. It's observation and prediction, not what is. There's just what happens. Without concepts, no causation. Don't know that means, but that would seem to be the point--no meaning to be found in the words, only pointers to more experience.
In a sense, form emerges and returns from formlessness. And do we even see the emerging? Can that ever be seen? When it is perceived, it is already returning. (Something not right about that sentence, because of the duality.) Perhaps there is only returning. The speed of this is irrelevant. The returning is all--how to express that? How to incorporate the perceiving?
This is all beginning to sound like metaphysical babble. Amusing! The earlier process/form known as Sean would have hated this nonsense with a passion. But, whatever--words don't really work right in this place. For other seekers reading this thread, perhaps understand that attaching meaning too literally to what is written here won't really help. :)