Thank you for that too. You said "I am afraid that if this process of seeing somehow fails, ...", it won't fail, it doesn't work like this. Seeing through the illusion isn't really a one shot/insight/seeing deal, it's often -as it is happening in our talk- a series of seeing the difference between what thought says and our experience, which you've already done quite a bit!Thank you very much for this feedback. I wanted to be honest about doubts that have arisen. I am afraid that if this process of seeing somehow fails, it will because I was somehow dishonest in my answers.
I do believe that I have understood all of the pointers thus far, through my direct experience. I will try to relax and trust the process as we move forward.
very goodNo. The thinker is a thought. Each thought may or may not have a sense of a thinker. This thinker can not see any other thought.
and can anything be found that is doing the finding? :)No, I cannot find anything beyond the thought itself
good insight. if you don't have control over thoughts as you mention, then how does it reconcile with the statement you just made "I've spent a lot of time trying to think of ways to fix ongoing problems with myself and the outside world."? Is there something that has spend a lot of time thinking, or could that also just be thought?This is an illusion that I have struggled with a lot in my life... That somehow I am responsible for thinking myself into and out of bad situations in life. I've spent a lot of time trying to think of ways to fix ongoing problems with myself and the outside world. But it is impossible to use willpower to try and think the next thought... which I hope somehow will solve my life's problems.
I have no control of the next thought. I don't know where it will come from or what it will be. Maybe sometimes it feels like I can access old thoughts in my memory (I now see there is no 'I' choosing to remember thoughts either), but in terms of having a new and insightful thought... it's impossible to control.
could it be that your 'lifes problems' are only (the result of) thought?But it is impossible to use willpower to try and think the next thought... which I hope somehow will solve my life's problems.
What if we would lump all experience together (seeing, thinking, feeling, etc) and call it all 'experiencing'. Can anything be found out of it? Is there a seperate entity within it? Can anything be found besides this experiencing?