Again, the Compulsion to Find Meaning (to understand everything) was "throwing me off." Second guessing... For example: "Body is AE of Thought. - Hmmm, but if that's the case, what about old memories? What about this? What about that?
That's all Thought. AE of Thought...
So, there is no separation/division in Actual (Raw) Experience (in the IS/X).
Raw Experience can be "painted over" with thought. Like I mentioned earlier, thought is what creates the divisions.
X is what's Real and Raw.
There is no separation in X. Even ColorSoundSmellTouchThought do knot have any separation in AE/X.
Since there is no separation anywhere and with anything in X, there cannot be an Individual Person. A person is a thought.
Any and all Individuals are thought. A wave on the ocean interpreted as separate from the ocean.
Like I mentioned before, I have a pretty hard time expressing experience at the moment. Language fails time and time again.
This may or may not help explain what I'm trying to say:
One time I had a super realistic Lucid Dream where I was Wide Awake while still within the dream. Some friends were in the dream...
I whispered to one friend: "This is a dream!" he replied: "Who's dreaming? Me or you?" I said: "Me! Of course!"
He replied: "Then do I exist?!" to which I replied: "I don't know!"
"I'm" at the point now where "waking life" feels like a lucid dream. I cannot make things appear out of thin air like in that lucid dream, but sometimes there's the feeling that it could be done!
Right now, when "I'm walking around in the waking world" people seem the same way... Fake. They all have these stories but they seem fake. It's hard to explain.
Everything and everyone just IS. Like flowers popping out of a plant - no one is directing this, it just happens by itself...
And all personalities/individuals are like waves on the ocean. Ray is the Thought that he is a wave, when in fact he is the whole ocean. The "Ray wave" arises, then sustains itself for a bit, then subsides. While it is a wave, it believes it is separate to the ocean, but it is not separate. Separation is a thought. Separation is AE of THOUGHT. But the "Ray wave" is AE of Thought.
Another thing that was tripping me up was the Compulsion to find Meaning in everything (in each and every thing). But this is AE of Thought! There is no way to know WHAT X is made of or how it's all arising and subsiding etc. When I disregard finding meaning, X just IS with No Separation to anything else. Everything IS. Everything simply IS/X.
Okay...continuing with a deeper investigation of the body. Please follow each step, don't leave out any. Take your time. Don't move to the next step until the previous one is clearly seen. Repeat the exercise several times.
Stand in front of a bigger mirror.
(1) First, close the eyes and feel the sensations labelled ‘body’.
(2) Then open the eyes and look into the mirror while still paying attention to the sensations.
Is there any connection between the felt sensations and the image in the mirror? Or just thoughts (and/or mental images) suggest that there is?
There is no connection. Just thoughts. The fact that the sensation +thought+color etc seem to happen at the same time makes it seem connected.
(3) While still paying attention to the sensations move one hand and observe the movement from the mirror.
Is there any connection between the felt sensations (labelled ‘hand’) and image of movement in the mirror?
There is no connection. It is the AE of Thought.
(4) Now do the same movement with the hand, but this time look at the hand directly, not from the mirror.
Is there any connection between the felt sensations (labelled ‘hand’) and the image ‘of movement’?
Or only thoughts suggest it?
It's the same as through the mirror. AE of Thought.
(5) Now, pay attention only to the image in the mirror.
Does the image by itself suggest in any way that is ‘you’ or ‘your body’?
Does the image itself suggest in any way that it is a ‘body’ at all?
Or are there only colours and shapes?
It's only colors and shapes. Just like watching a movie. The colors seem to be people and places but it's just interpreted color.
(6) Where the mirror ends, some parts of the body (probably legs) cannot be seen.
Just by the image in the mirror, is there any ‘knowledge’ that there must be legs, or only thoughts and mental images suggest so?
Only thoughts would give the idea of legs, in this example. Another example would be someone's head from the side. Thought assumes there are 2 ears, but there is only AE of one "ear" - the one "behind" the head is not known.
(7) Now turn away from the mirror and look forward (don’t look directly to any body parts).
Is there a ‘body’ anywhere when all thoughts and images are ignored, or are there only sensations?
This was really cool! When focusing on the "images on the screen" there is no body at all. Only sensations.
(8) Start to walk slowly.
Is there a ‘body walking’, or are there only sensations?
Is there actual experience of ‘walking’ at all?
Or just THOUGHTS ABOUT ‘walking’?
Can such a thing as ‘body’ be found OR just THOUGHTS ABOUT a ‘body’?
Can such a thing as ‘walking’ be found?
It is always "THOUGHT ABOUT something" as if X I'd "painted in thought." - "Walking" is AE of Thought.
(9) Are the sensations localized in space, like ‘going through the room’; OR is there only an image that is labelled ‘room’ and appearing sensations without any location?
Sensations without location. Location is AE of Thought. It cannot be known in Actual Experience.
So let's look at this...to make sure this is clear.
The belief that others are a separate self and are aware, is based on two key assumptions which seem to overlap:
1. You are a person that is aware.
2. There is an ‘outside’ to experience as it is known (smell, taste, sound, thought, image, sensation)
Are you a ‘person’ that is ‘aware’?
I am not. X is Everything. No separation. There is no person. There cannot be.
Do ‘you’ perceive through a ‘body’?
No. AE is "the experience." X is the "body" is AE of Thought.
What is the AE of ‘others thinking’?
That is the AE of Thought.
What is the AE of ‘others’?
That is the AE of Thought.
Are you a ‘person’ that others can think of?
No. "Person" and "others" are AE of Thought.
What is the AE of 'other' being ‘aware’?
The AE of Thought.
Is there anything other than ‘you’ that is ‘aware’?
No. There is no "Me" that is aware. There only IS. - X
If there is no personal 'me' then what are others?
Just like in my dream, "others" are AE of Thought.
What are 'others' made of?
Others are are made of thoughts.
How is it known that others have thoughts? Because they tell you?
Exactly. There's no way to know if others have thought. That would be AE of Thought of thought...
Is there any evidence that you have thoughts? If you don't, can others have them?
Not in AE.
How is it known that others experience?
It cannot be known in AE.
How is it known that there is a “other”?
It cannot be known. "Other" is AE of Thought.
Can you find an ‘inner world and an ‘outer world’? Or is it thought that says there is an ‘inner world’ and an ‘outer world’?
That division cannot be found/known.
Where exactly is the dividing line between an ‘inner world’ and an ‘outer world’?
There no divisions on X. Everything IS. No past or future either. Not even present. Everything "feels" eternal - happening at once... Kinda...