Thanks for your patience. I'm feeling much better now.
Yes, it's some kind of aliveness/awareness. It doesn't need a label, it just comes naturally because I've been taught to use it. I do see the "falseness" though, it's just a label that comes with using language.How would you describe the "I" that still feels like it is there? Is this like a sense of aliveness, awareness, beingness? Is it a thing that needs a label like "I"?
I've noticed some changes lately. In the past I've been very much identified with the emotions felt, now there's often some distance. But it's something I have to do consciously, it doesn't come naturally. Often still I forget and again identify with the feelings. "I'm sad" or "I'm so happy". When I remember, I stop and look at the emotions and say to myself "there's sadness felt" or "this human is feeling happiness", and it seems to help. I noticed that when I'm not feeding the emotions with thinking about them and believing them blindly, they actually pass pretty quickly.Can an "I" be found in feelings like fear, joy, sadness? Or is it just feelings like fear, joy, sadness arising and passing?
So no, there's no I in the emotions or feelings. If I'm very alert, I can see the emotions appear and disappear. It requires a lot of effort though.
I noticed when being feverish, that it was easier to distance myself from physical pain than emotional pain. Like it's easier to think that things happen to the body, and the body is not me. But when it's emotional pain and it's in the mind, I more often think it happens to me, not to some other thing called mind. So I guess that means I still identify a lot with the mind?