Okay, thank you for sharing.Family problems: One of my family stayed in psychic ward for several months. Now lives and works in assisted living with garden, tailor and carpenter atelier. There were hard times for all of us.
Here suffering was caused by sticking on things, persons, situations and intense feelings.
there is nothing i can hold at all.1) Brother, family, behaviour of the people, awareness. Is there something that you can hold? Is there any feeling or thinking or situation that you can hold?
there is no inside or outside, just feeling2) When hand is laying on the table feelings happen. Is there an inside or an outside when feeling this?
as i look and see that i does not exist in body, thought or feelings i notice a center of perception in the upper middle part of my head. sometimes i experience the center of perception elsewhere as i direct my attention throughout my body. i asked if this center of perception was i and there was no answer.3) Now look: Where is an i? Is it in body, in thoughts, in feelings? Where does it come from?
when i look back in time for an i there is only the thought of i doing things or experiencing things. i can not be found.When you look back in time, was there an i and where to find it?
as i look at my brother in front of me, he asks what i see and the answer is thought.