I can't allow anything, allowing happens. Sometimes there is allowing sometimes no.
Exactly. Sometimes there is allowing and sometimes not. Perhaps it would even be truer to say that, as allowing and not allowing are all happening in our thinking, none of it is real. It is all already allowed by Life, just because it already IS
I have a tournament this saturday, in these days, thoughts about if I'm going to win or lose comes up. Thought about fighting strategy, these are accompanied by feeling of oppression in solar plexus and chest. Then thought about the illusion of all this. I can't control if I'll win or lose.
So what is happening, in actuality, is feeling of oppression in the solar plexus and chest, and many selfing thoughts coming up. What is not happening is the content of these thoughts, for example a’ you’ that could win or lose before the tournament is over, correct?
For example what the sense of you telling me to do this or that if in actuality all is automatic without control by anyone or anything.
It’s all on automatic, that’s right, but it does not mean that there are no triggers that appear to result in some event, without anyone in charge. For example if you see the rain outside, you will probably pick up an umbrella, but there is no one who chooses to pick up the umbrella. If, in the middle of a pointing exercise I ask you to raise a hand, on reading the words, you probably will. That does not mean that there is an entity called Alessandro that is doing it. The doership does not belong to any individual.
And although we can see this, we continue to use pronouns and the usual grammar to communicate. Or things could get tricky ;-)
Has anything changed since the beginning of our exchange?
There can be quite a bit of residual stuff to work through, when the idea of ‘I’ is shot through. Much habitual thinking and conditioning can remain, like an engine turned off that continues running for a while. In tense situations, like a tournament, it can make the illusion of a person seem very real in that moment. Old patterns re-emerge, sometimes undetected, then we look again, and we shrug it off. Sometimes this can stick around a bit longer, depending on how tenacious the pattern is. It does not make it real, but it can be good to have ‘others’ to share it with. That’s why we have LU groups for those who have passed through the ‘gate’. When this process is over, I would like to invite you to join these groups, to deepen your clarity and share your experiences.
Before that, we have some summing-up questions, which, if you’re ok with it, you could take a look at and answer. When we're both happy with your answers, I will invite other guides to take a look to make sure we’ve not left any stone unturned.
So what do you say, would you like to go to these questions now?