When I close my eyes like that, it feels like I am space, am presence, and in that space/presence there are sensations. I get two kinds of sensations.Is it body that experiences sensations? Or body is experienced?
With eyes closed, is there a body or there are sensations +labels like arm, foot, head?
Ones like sparks, like electrical charges, like raindrops hitting water - so many of them - throughout the space that I am - like a firework display. Constant random sparks. Sometimes it's like they are in that space that is me. Sometimes its like they're lights flashing on and off on a circuit board in the space in my head.
And ones which are more constant. More physical. Have more substance. More density. These I label quite quickly and they give me a sense of the body.
The body is not there before the labelling starts. It arises as soon as I start to describe the sensations. I need labels as soon as I try to communicate the experience, and the body comes into being.
Before that, it just feels like space. A space in which sensations happen.
They appear in that space. Sometimes it feels like the space in my head but it isn't restricted like that. I seem to have spatial awareness in that space. There is direction - at least there is up, down, left and right.Observe these bodily sensations and tell me, where are they appearing, in actuality, not from memory.
Where does sound happen? Listen to distant sounds, are they happening in the body?
Open eyes, is seeing happening inside the head? Is there a head in seeing? Is there inside and outside in the view?
Distant sounds happen in my mind, in the space in my head. I think its the same space but it feels more in my head. Sometimes, its like I can see them on a screen in my head. When I had a bath tonight, I felt I could feel the warmth in that space. I could feel the warmth in my head.
When I open the eyes I feel seeing is happening inside the head. Like on a screen in the head. Outside has become inside.
I'll write more soon.