You known what Im going to write here!!!!!Yes, they do :). Yesterday evening, while reading your question 'Have you seen through the illusion Radu?’, there was an answer of yes, immediately accompanied by a “but maybe…”. Looking into this I saw pop out a couple of things.
Not sure if they are relevant or not, but I will detail them for the sake of openness.
1. While reading McKenna and listening to Norquist, I got a general impression that this thing must consume you, that the shift in perception must be violent, the self must be annihilated, its the end of my world…stuff like this; and here I am sitting in a place that seems familiar.
2. I mentioned in the beginning of our dialog that I was a passenger to my girlfriend's journey. And looking at her, at the stuff she seemingly went through…intense suffering, depression, acute dissonance and then the realisation occurred while talking to somebody on LU. And here I am…not feeling anything of this sort. Maybe some frustration, but where was my glorious demise? :)
Expectations!!!!! I had also read McKenna before coming here to LU. I also expected a dramatic destruction of the I etc….!!!!! What was experienced however was something completely different.
Look at all you have written above – ultimately what are they all? Just thoughts? This experience doesn’t need thinking about – it needs looking at! So look, past the expectations, past the stories of what others have experienced or not experienced. Look at what is – not what something should be. If doubt comes up – see it for what it is. If more thoughts and stories come up – see them for what they are. Both arise in what is and neither of which is ‘you’!
Beautiful! And what is belief? More thoughts????? LOLRadu is made up, it is a thought.
Who's there to doubt? No one :)
I have no words. I didn't have any words last night, nor during the day.
I had a discussion with my gf and she pointed out two questions:
1. Is there a self now? 2. Has there ever been a self? - the answer came in an instant: "belief"!
Belief in a past where a self was, belief that now a self is. At the moment, this belief has been seen trough.
Are you ready for the final questions?
Much Love Sarah xx