No ~ there is no sign of a separate entity anywhere, in any way shape or form. Was there ever? No, there wasn't.1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
It feels natural after minimum enquiry into the subject and very obvious. I do feel different to how I felt when I started this. I feel a clarity which as you can tell from my username (CLOUDY!) I didn't when I apparently started this investigation. There is a sense of a very slight shift...which is manifesting in very subtle ways. For example, I feel the flow of life in all it's aliveness and don't feel so restricted by the thought process. In fact I am paying very little attention to any story that crops up, rather laughing at it than taking it seriously. This is a nugget that I will never lose now, once seen and applying it to most of the silly thoughts that come and go. I feel more at ease in myself, for this has played such a major role in my suffering over the years. All that unfounded attention, and it was never the truth. I feel lighter in general, which is great. I am now able to observe feelings when they come up but not attach any identity to them, I am more able to feel them as energy in the body rather than labelling them...fear, pain, excitement etc. That has been huge for me.2) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference (if any) from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
3) In our dialogue together, was there a last bit, perhaps a question or a statement that pushed you over, made you look and realise?
It was simply the realisation that actions come before the thoughts and the thoughts simply label experiences. The fact that the separate "I" was just another thought. This really clicked and I couldn't find any truth to the thoughts about ANYTHING. In fact, the silence was my biggest teacher...no amount of thinking could get me to where I wanted to be..so by dropping all thinking and simply experiencing...this really pointed to the truth. Also,, I was aware that all this stuff goes beyond words, beyond thoughts and that there is a "knowingness" that has always been here. It was extremely helpful once you started to simplify everything right down to the bare bones.
Thank you so much, you're a great guide and so committed, I admire that. I'd love to know your story, how you came to your understanding and how life is for you etc. but I understand you might not want to share all that, as you're very busy guiding! I would like to be able to communicate with people who are in a similar situation.