How is it feeling today? :)
Hey Ilona. It´s feelin´groovy! Chilled, resting in itself, meeting the inner and outer world without resistance or hankering.It´s light, almost transparent, everything moves through, nothing sticks. Where´s Eeyore?
I´m travelling today, everybody wants to talk to me, strangers on the bus, strangers at the trainstation. I´m happier listening, so it works out well. I´m unreasonably interested in everything. Had some time at the trainstation and got totally fascinated by extremely expensive magazines about rock climbing. Read the BBC news on my mobile as if it was a movie cliffhanger moment. Where´s the old jaded me?
Just like yesterday, I got up at 4 pm today. I was pretty woozy, but answered your last question as best I could. Internet hasn´t been working until now, on the train, so I´ll paste this early mornings writing below. And then I´ll sign off, for the time being. I wont be guiding others for now, it feels right to first map out the new landscape for a while. But I´m always available for your questions and comments.
Bowing to Rumsfeld, holding Lithuanias finest in my heart,
How would I tell about the absence of 'me' to somebody who never heard about it?
This mind is still mush. Four hours of sleep, and more interested in how life without believing in an entity works than telling anybody else about it.
But for you Ilona, being such a sweet nobody, I shall stretch and walk the extra mile;..
You ever notice how something doesn´t seem quite right about reality? How, despite the abundance of available advice, we end up creating repeated misery for ourselves and others? How life doesn´t seem to make sense? Maybe that´s why we enjoy movies like The Matrix and The Truman Show, affirming reality isn´t what it pretends to be? Well, it´s because it´s true! Reality isn´t what it pretends to be!
There´s a lie right at the center of life. It´s like those spy thrillers, looking for the mole, the investigation leading closer and closer to the heart of the Secret Service itself. But in your, and my and everybody elses case, the lie resides right at our own center, at the place we call I, or me. Investigate; is the word/thought/sense of I or me pointing to an underlying reality? Just like the word rain points to the wet stuff in your face, or the words fear and joy point to a set of body sensations? Or is it the case that the words I and me are just words, underpinned by nothing more real and solid than the word Santa Claus? I found the latter to be true. I´m still trying to handle the implications of this. But let me tell you this much. As far as I can see, most of my psychological suffering has been because I believed in an I. And I´ve hung around with Buddhists for almost 25 years! They´re specialised in no I! But the idea is not enough. You need to see this, clearly and directly for yourself. Just like you see there is no Batman in this room now. Once you´ve seen it, no one will be able to convince you otherwise. Of course, we keep using the first person pronoun, it helps us communicate. Me, I´m still new in life without the lie. And I suspect I´ll occasionally fall into delusion again, habits die hard. But then I´ll just look for Batman, and notice he´s still not here!
Interested? There are some good people at http://www.liberationunleashed.com
. Do you really want to postpone taking the red pill any longer?