Greetings.
I wrote this yesterday, ill post it as a means to establish temperment. Otherwise, all following interactions will be fresh.
I feel like I am stuck in a very clean ego observer perspective.
If you asked me who I am, I would have enough of a spiritual intellectual conviction to know that I am not a person and that a person cannot exist. I know that my existence is observed within the space of something much larger than myself, but not even larger, just more fundamental. It's like being on top of a mountain, your perspective is specific based on local, and even though you cannot see from the lower levels of the mountain, you know that you are standing on top of something greater because the extent of IT is implicit within your current perspective.
I understand that moments and events are only echoes and mental refractions of the otherwise pure and constant expression of Perception/Existence. I can silence thought, not by an enforcement of silence, but by realizing that I am the listener of thought, so therefore I can choose to listen internally or externally, to thoughts or ambience. But...can I remove the listener and become the sound of the wind?
A lot of Huang Po's teachings prescribe eliminating conceptual thought. Is that the same thing as perceptual thought? I understand the trickiness of using the phrase perceptual thought, because I realize that there is thought and then there is perception, and usually thought is just a reflection of perception. But within that term I am referring to MY perception of perception as perceptual thought. So when I eliminate the thought constructs that I build around my perceptions, I am left with the observance of my perceptions. But, how do I eliminate the observer of perception?