The seperate self is just a thought. And the sense of self is arising. Probably because of long time conditioning.So is the separate self just a thought? And sense of self just a sense arising because of long time conditioning?
Except in thoughts and vague feeling is there anything else pointing to existence of self?
Isn't that peace sign of resting in truth without belief in separate self?There is also a stillness happening whenever the self is looked through.
Thoughts arise, come and go, do you have any control of it? Except to be examined as you did.Sometimes a thought of self arises but it's quickly seen as unnecessary. But it keeps arising.What would be depression if it wouldn't be labeled as depression? If the sensations would be just felt as they are?My actualy experience right now: depression (as sensation) arising in solar plexus
You don't need to rush. Take your time to relax and observe the actual experiencing.
There is nothing pointing to a self except in thoughts and feelings except maybe the body, but that's because there are thoughts identifying with the body.
That peace is happening when the self is being seen through.
"I" don't have any control over thoughts.
WHen the label of depression was dropped it seemed to just be sensation.
I tried to do more looking today again and intense fear arose in my chest when I started to unravel the self more and more.
The observer seems to be thoughts centering around the head. I try to look for one but I can only find a sense of one, and thoughts and sensation.
I try to look for the one who searches but noone can be found.
Frustration comes up because identification happens with the self again and again but I can't find the one who is frustrated.
Will this process continue to unfold with an "I" that needs to investigate these things? Because when the identification with the self happens, the peace doesn't seem to appear and it seems to be, again, a solid self there, but when I look, it's not there. But will this start to happen automatically?