If you're asking if I've "crashed the gate" or something I don't think so, though thinking seems an absurd indicator of anything right now. There's definitely some softening around this whole identity-- but it's more like the "whack-a-mole" game (I remembered its name) is less stressful and more amusing. A mole pops up-- in other words I notice myself caught-- and then I notice how ridiculous that seems and the mole disappears.Is there you in way or form?
My general sense of things is still separation but the border seems a wee fuzzier. I'll be away for the next two days with some high potential for family drama so it will be interesting to see whether things get clearer or less so. I did find myself caught in a thunderstorm today-- there was a bit of self-management going on, but in general sitting curled up in a ball (mostly to protect my camera) just below tree line being pelted with cold raindrops and surrounded by BOOMs was rather pleasant.
Keep sending me questions-- I may not get to them until Saturday but I'll try to check in. Since a common phrase on this site is "once seen, can't be unseen" I'd say that since there's already some fading of clarity, then any "seeing" is on pretty shaky ground-- like maybe from afar or through a periscope. Anyway, the questions keep redirecting me to look, and that seems very helpful.