Yes, “open” is a good description of what I see and feel regarding all senses.Does it seem that each sense is "open" ?
I tried my best to see as a baby. So, all these senses are just some kind of somewhat different sensations that just appear. I don't really know whether to call them sensations or not. Seeing is the farthest from what I understand under sensation, but if I examine it as a baby, I probably don't want to label it somehow. All the senses are just something what happens. And they are not limited by sense organs.Yes, that can be said, of course, but go a little simpler than this. Dont worry about "eyes" or "tongues" being "involved" That's thinking about things. Notice the absolute baseline of sensation, free from any concern about how it may or may not happen, like a baby , before words or ideas.
A lot of thoughts about everything appear again. Like “I have probably imagined all this” and “how could it be possible that they are so-to-speak “open”” and “wtf am I doing at all”. And I remembered one episode of House MD there one woman “saw with ears” and “heard with eyes” and as I know, they use only real (or at least somewhat real) cases in the episodes. These were the only registered thoughts, maybe they were more.
And yes, there seems to be anxiety about all this. Maybe that's the unconscious reason why I skipped to answer yesterday and feel irritated and somewhat depressed all day yesterday and today. But I’m not sure this is connected.