Then above the top of the jumper where I see my head when I look in the mirror there is a space - it doesn’t have any colour or texture of shape but my direct experience tells me I am looking out of this space. ( is this wrong?)
This is a learned knowledge, a learned perception from the headless way.
There is ZERO experience of space.
But if you believe that there is experience of space, and looking out of the space, then it shows that you can’t see the difference between experience and thoughts ( = imagination).
Ok in concrete terms - from direct experience- all I can say is that ‘i’ can see objects , shapes, colours and smell and hear and feel.
This is still not direct experience.
Since there is no experience of an ‘I’ hearing, feeling, seeing, etc.
When I look above the top of my jumper there is a space. Thoughts and emotions are felt there.
But this space is just a fantasy, not an experience.
I can see just a pair of eyes. My experience is that ‘i’ am looking at the face and the eyes .
There is no experience of “I am looking…” – since there is no experience of an 'I" or anything looking.
So where I’m sitting now in the cafe if I lift up my right hand and move it back beside my head it disappears into a space.
This is an intellectualization. This is a learned knowledge form the headless way. This is not looking at experience.
I can say there is awareness in a logical conceptual way because if there was no awareness nothing would be perceived?
But awareness can’t be sensed.
You are making logical conclusions. You are thinking, not looking.
Mike, what you think you experience is mostly just beliefs.
You used the method of the headless way to interpret your beliefs in the self.
You mixed the headless way with the belief in the self, into a big mesh-up.
So now you have an even ‘messed up’ beliefs of the self, than most people normally have.
Beliefs layered upon beliefs.
If you want to be successful with this investigation, and you REALLY want to see the illusion of the self, you have to COMPLETELY ABANDON everything you have learned and gathered through the headless way.
You have to become a totally clean slate.
Start everything from the scratch.
Can you do that?
And more importantly, are you WILLING to completely let go everything about the headless way and look at your experience directly through the eyes of a child who has no intellectual knowledge about almost anything?
Please really consider these questions.
If you want to be successful with this investigation, you need to be 100% committed, and you have to put aside everything you have learned, and start from scratch.