I live in Portland, Oregon, USA (Pacific Northwest). You?
Answering the questions is more difficult than expected but I'm ready to move on. Simple instructions may work best with me as lack of memory and understanding seems to get in the way when looking.
I did not regard it to be thought. The feeling appeared as anxiety and frustration. I wanted to find the answer but was prevented.It seems you looked and couldn’t find a hearer, then felt trapped preventing you from finding the hearer? Is this simply doubtful thoughts or are you experiencing fear and claustrophobia?
Absolute certainty eludes but getting close.Ok, so there is sensation in the body, this is known directly. What we are looking at is the sense that the sensation is felt by ME or I. The reason you can’t separate the feeler from the body is that the feeler isn’t there. Could you please look again, even a few more times, until there is certainty about this?
Wednesdays and Thursdays I drive quite a bit so I certainly can do this then. In between deliveries I have been using this time to listen to teachings by Eckhart Tolle and Rupert Spira. If there is anything else I can do that is simple or repetitious that would be a good time. Wednesdays I also microdose so there is a somewhat more relaxed mind.Yes, only in thought is there a self, an entity feeling sensations. You see this, and then fall into doubt or confusion. This is ok, unless it feels upsetting, in which case I would try pendulating; gently moving in and out of the looking. You are having glimpses of the absence of this entity but it needs to be crystal clear so that no doubts are left.
If you can, and it is not too uncomfortable try to keep looking into this with all of the senses, during your days, especially when you are feeling positive and happy. Just look into the sights, sounds, sensations, smells, tastes, and let it become a habit to look for the senser. Please do this and let me know what happens?
I can't see where thoughts come from or go. I did not do anything to make the initial thought appear. The series of thoughts after that may be deliberate thinking such as when doing math or contemplating the original thought. I cannot predict my next thought except when searching memory for a known answer such as when adding 2 + 2. I cannot select only pleasant thoughts. They are usually unpredictable. I cannot choose not to have certain thoughts and if I try they are more likely to appear. I cannot pick and choose any kind of thought unless asking for a known answer. It is not possible to prevent a thought.Here is a thought exercise. Sit quietly for about 30 minutes and notice the arising thoughts. Just let them appear as they appear. Try your best to COMPLETELY ignore what they are saying and just notice how they appear without you doing anything at all.
Where are they coming from and going to?
Did you do anything to make a particular thought or thoughts appear?
Could you have done anything to make a different thought appear at that exact moment instead?
Can you predict your next thought?
Can you select from a range of thoughts to have only pleasant thoughts?
Can you choose not to have painful, negative or fearful thoughts?
Can you pick and choose any kind of thought?
Is it possible to prevent a thought from appearing?
Thoughts do seem to randomly jump around with only a light attachment to each other but I don't see an organized sequence.It seems that thought has some logical ordered appearance, but look carefully and just notice if there is an organised sequence? Or is that just another thought that says ‘these thoughts are in sequence’ or “they take content from previous thought”, or that ‘one thought follows another thought’?