All right. Take care of your arm.
Thank you! For now, things have stabilized.
Please sit down, and really contemplate that what is it that you really want from this investigation?
I wanted to see if I could see past the 'I/me' I am always taking myself to be. To know, 'am I?' or, 'am I not?'
What do you want to achieve?
A certainty. A groundedness. If I am, then who is the real 'me'? And if I am not, what am 'I' then?
Obviously I am something. I exist. I am half of the dialogue between us.
But the obviousness starts to fray as I try to pinpoint who I am.
Something which you have been trying to get me to look for myself.
Thing is, I keep failing without intention. We've been at this investigation for several months, and it's stalled again with my last response.
I feel like perhaps I'm not compatible or ready to proceed.
If it hadn't been for your persistent efforts to get me to look at what you were pointing to, I wouldn't have lasted this long.
Seeing your good intentions motivated to stick around and try.
But we keep circling back to the same impasse.
And I've run out things to do / try differently.
I feel like I'd be better off going back at it alone and following my intuition and life's synchronicities.
Not sure if it matters explaining all of this, given how little thoughts count for on this forum. :p
Kidding aside, I do feel this is as far as I can go with this method of investigation.
Thank you so much for trying. :) Some of what you pointed to did hit the spot.
I'm glad I tried and did what I could. Now I know and won't have to wonder what if.