As long as there is a watcher or something that is aware the illusion of the separate self hasn’t been seen through fully. The separate self is just disguised as a watcher/awareness/witness.Yes this belief is strong with me, the idea of a watcher, something that is aware.
It assumes that there is a subject-object relation which are linked with the subject’s activity of observing. So there is a subject (like witness) which is experiencing/witnessing the object (everything else that is not-me).
There is no subject-object relation. There is no separation.
The illusion of the witness or the knower or awareness or consciousness (whatever we call it) is the bases of the illusion of the separate self.
Here are some common words used for the same illusion of the self:
awareness = consciousness = witness = experiencer = perceiver = knower = looker = noticer = watcher = feeler = seer = self = true Self = I = me = myself = emptiness = nothingness = my real nature = field = field of experiencing = space = knowing space… and more
Staying or standing as awareness or witness is just separating the self from everything else. I am the one which is watching everything else, untouched by them, dissociated from life. And this is separation. And seeing no self is seeing no-separation.
Take a cup or any object into your hands. And investigate if the cup can be experience in any other way then with the 5 senses. Can you?V: In English, awareness is a noun, not a verb. Nouns imply agencies, or entities.
But can such thing be found as an independently existing awareness?J: No, awareness is not something that can be found.
Can anything be experience in any other way than with the 5 senses?
Look carefully. Don’t just think, but really try to experience outside the 5 senses. Can this be done?
If awareness cannot be found, how is known exactly that there is such thing as awareness?
But just because thoughts ‘say’ that a thought and the knowing of it are separate things, does this thought make them be ACTAULLY separate?When I try to separate the two from each other, only more thoughts come along about them being separate. I can’t distinguish between the thought and the knowing.
Thoughts ‘say’ all sorts of things, but look at experience and see if this above thought is actually right.
“but I am aware of the thought” – what does the word ‘I’ points to in this sentence?I can’t find the knowing….but I am aware of the thought. They are the same thing, or just thoughts about knowing.
What is it exactly that is aware of thoughts?
Where is it exactly?
You are trying to figure this out intellectually, by thinking.Yet, I experience thoughts and sensations from a unique perspective. If there is no knower then why is this experience just from my point of view? I don’t experience thoughts or sensations of others. I only experience sounds/sights close to me. I struggle with this, if there are just thoughts and sensations then what’s the point of each unique human perspective/experience?
Without thought how is it known exactly that experience is happening from a point of view?
What is the AE of point of view exactly? Is it a sound, color, taste, smell, sensation or thought?
This thought isn’t in line with experience.I only experience sounds/sights close to me.
This thought would be a bit closer to experience: There is the experience of sounds/colours close to THE BODY.
But where is the ‘I’, the experiencer?
Is the experiencer inside the body?
Inside the head?
Behind the eyes maybe?
How far or close to the eyes exactly?
Is it closer to the back of the head or closer to the eyes?
Is it in the middle or it’s a bit closer to one ear than the other?
Where is it exactly? – find the exact location
Where is the EXACT location of Jeff-inside-the-head looking out of the eyes?
What can be ACTUALLY FOUND at this location where Jeff seemingly appears?
This is a philosophical questions, and the answer could only be a thought speculation.I struggle with this, if there are just thoughts and sensations then what’s the point of each unique human perspective/experience?
And seeing through the self cannot be done by thinking. Since the whole illusion is mainly created by thoughts. We cannot use the same tool which has created the illusion in the first place.