Alright then. Let's carry on.
It is sensation and thoughts about the sensation being a head. In other words, it is a sensation which thought infers is a head. Can a head be found as actual experience?
Yes, no head, only sensations and thoughts that suggest the sensation is a head. Since no head can be found in actual experience, can a body be found as AE?
Does experience itself have a location?
Not necessarily. It can via thought story be linked to certain parts. So e.g. if there's an itching somewhere then it's known where it is by interpretation, means by thought story. Or a pain. The experience itself doesn't have a location but thought story immediately links it to some part.
Point where others see your face.
What do you see? You are now looking inwards – turning the direction of your attention round 180˚ from the objects out there to you the subject, to the place where it seems you are looking out of. Do you see your face? Do you see anything at all there - any colour or shape, any movement?
No. With closed eyes a vague memory picture of my face pops up and disappears. Then nothing. Then again some image of memory of face in the mirror. Then again nothing. Etc.
“Memory sensation” is AE of thought. It is thought naming/labelling something...in this case a sensation. Does a sensation know anything about ‘memory sensation’?
No. It's fresh every time.
Now when we look at this, do we find thought 27 has any knowledge of any of the other thoughts, let alone all of them? It seems that way, but when we look closely, what is found?
No it hasn't any knowledge of these. It’s a vague awareness of the topic of the threat if at all. But no memory of any single thought in between or a series of thoughts.
When is that ‘tension’ actually appearing? Does the sensation labelled as ‘tension’ know anything about the past? Does thought know anything about the past?
The tension can appear triggered by a certain situation or thought about a situation. No, the sensation itself doesn’t know about the past. No the thought as such doesn't know but a story is there which repeats itself.
Are you thinking because you are aware of all of this...and 'you' as a separate self are a thought, then it is thought that knows things?
No there’s no separate self nor a thought as self. Something is known in the overall entity conventionally called body-mind which is useful in day to day life.
Where does thought park itself ready to appear when a sensation labelled ‘tension’ appears? How does that thought know when to appear? And if that thought is parked somewhere waiting for a sensation to appear to match its label and stories, then where are all the other thoughts parked waiting to do the same thing?
No need for thoughts to be parked somewhere. It just appears. This hasn’t been my assumption. Thoughts just appear possibly triggered by circumstance. And disappear again.
And felt where exactly? If a head cannot be found in actual experience, then can a body be found in actual experience that is feeling anything?
No. Only sensations of various kinds and other experiences related to what conventionally is called body. Like tingling, tension, touch, knocking, humming, taste, sound, colour and shape, etc.
Here is a signpost that points to Moscow, London, Berlin etc. All of these signposts are labels that seemingly point to something. Do the signposts have any idea what they are pointing to? Are what they are pointing to actually known?
No they don’t. No it’s not known. Maybe a thought story about a label appears.
So again…is “memory impression in the body” known or is it simply a thought story?
It’s a thought story.
So, do you have any choice, whatsoever, about what you're aware of?
No, there’s no choice.
If you think that you do, let's have a very good LOOK and see:
If thoughts say, "I can change what I'm aware of by closing my eyes", and suddenly eyes seem to close, and you are aware of only colour black.
Did you REALLY have any choice about being aware of all of that?
Did you have any choice about being aware of the thoughts, or the apparent closing of eyes, or the colour black?
Could you have chosen not to have thoughts about closing eyes?
Could you have chosen for the colour to be green instead?
If you can't choose what you're aware of, then what else is there to choose?
Not much really. If at all. Choice is triggered by past conditioning. The range of leeway one has is rather limited.
So where is this “I” you keep referring to then?
There is no I.
Looking is a nice simple thing - there is no need to over-complicate it.
Just look now...a thought can be found, but can a thinker of thought be found?
No just thought.
Can an “I” be found in thought itself?
Sound can be found, but can a hearer of sounds be found?
Can an “I” be found in sound itself?
No just sound.
Colour can be found, but can a see-er of colour be found?
No just colour.
Can an “I” be found in colour itself?
Sensation can be found, but can a feeler of sensation be found?
No, just sensation.
Can an “I” be found in sensation itself?
Smell can be found, but can a smeller of smell be found?
No just smell.
Can an “I” be found in smell itself?
Taste can be found, but can a taster of taste be found?
No just taste.
Can an “I” be found in taste itself?
Experience can be found, but can an experiencer of experience be found?
It's as simple as that. Just look and see what is actually present - and what is only imaginary.
No experiencer can be found. There’s experience and story about it which is imaginary.