Sorry it took again a while to sit with the questions. Quite a few! Also there's still busy times at work. But it's fine.
It happened quite a while back. It was a feeling of relief. No big mind boggling experience rather a realisation, a lifting of weight kind of feeling. Since then it feels obvious that there isn't a separate self.And how is this obvious? Can you recall when exactly it was that the realisation happened and how it felt?
In that sense nothing has actually changed. It's still experience of one kind or another.That is like a new intellectual understanding about something - about what's been noticed about AE...that isn't change, that is simply knowledge. So what has changed?
In that sense no, there's no seeking of that sort now.So is the seeking to find still happening...is it the same seeking that drove you to look for answers, that drove you to see through the separate self?
Sensations can't sense wanting and rejecting. Sensation only feel. The wanting and rejection is in thinking. E.g. sensations of tension occur which thinking interprets as wanting or not wanting.And how do sensations sense “wanting and rejecting” exactly?
No they don't. Even in the case of a strong sensing of pain it's rather an instinctive move away.Do the sensations themselves suggest in any way that they are wanting and/or rejecting?
No, they don't suggest anything like this.Do the sensations themselves suggest in any way they know anything about wanting or rejecting?
Thoughts pick up on pleasure and displeasure which is experienced with the senses. Thought stories explain wanting or rejecting, they explain why something is good or pleasurable or not.How exactly do thoughts know about “wanting and rejecting”?
Thoughts come and go like sense impressions. They happen just so. They may take content of commenting what's happening. Or they may take on stories.What are thoughts exactly?
It's not that anything particular is reacting. It's just another experience which is happening now. A thought story may link them to something which appears coherent but in AE it isn't.And what is it exactly that is reacting?
It happens rather randomly.How is the movement controlled?
No, the hand turning without command. A thought can come up thinking turn but the hand can still not turn. Likewise it turns without a thought command.Does a thought control it?
No, there's no controller.Can a ‘controller’ of any description be located?
It's not possible. There is no actual decision. It's more a random flow of playful movements.How is the decision made to turn the hand over? Track any decision point when a thought MADE THE DECISION to turn the hand over and the hand turns over immediately.
No there isn't any which is choosing.Can you find a separate individual or anything that is choosing when to turn the palm up or down?