It is hilarious :) It is peculiar that the mind can investigate itself and realise there is no control. I guess the really peculiar bit is that there was the illusion of control in the first place. Upon careful inspection there is no control, just stuff happening. Sometimes attention is so close to that stuff that it seems like the attention is the cause. I pop in and out of directly experiencing that there is no control.it's just hilarious :)
Why does someone need to be?
There is no control; there is just investigating happening. It is particularly clear that physical movement happens before intent. Thought is fast, and trickier to catch in the act. But attention can not be controlled. For instance, I'm writing this, but occasionally am distracted. There is no choice in the distraction, or in the eventual returning of attention. The apparent choice comes from a previous intention to write, which wasn't an intention at all, but a thought that ended up dominating. The same process happens during any task that needs extended focus, like reading or meditation. I think I am becoming comfortable with this.Is there someone investigating this or is investigating happening?
There is personal experience. Only I am privy to what I am experiencing right now.Is there a separate self?