. I've also taken a step back from this inquiry a couple of times because it didn't feel like it was going anywhere.
We have barely even lined ourselves up in the right direction. I'm not surprised that you feel we haven't gone anywhere. That's my view of things too. Except perhaps for the work of looking at uncomfortable feelings, which is a start.
Consider that it is rather premature to be expecting anything to happen so quickly.
If its imagined that something should happen for someone and maybe rather quickly there will be automatic disappointment.
Who or what should something happen for?
. . From the mind-oriented side, yes it is possible to think thoughts, and it's also possible to quiet thoughts through meditation. From the no-mind-oriented side, thoughts arise by themselves without intention. The I-thought, or sense of self, seems to be ever-present in my experience so far.
Look directly at the experience of thinking. Don't think about it but watch. Look. See if it's possible in experience to witness a thought being created by a self.
If you think thoughts it should be possible to prevent unpleasant thoughts from appearing. Is that possible?
I can only give you the best of what I do for anyone. That is, point to no self directly a d efficiently. This is what guides do here. We are not here to advise about meditation. I'm very happy to assist you to look for yourself. But I wonder if you already have quite firm ideas about what we ought to be doing? Those seem likely to hold us both up unless they're dropped?
What do you think?
All the best