Thanks - I enjoyed writing it!Lovely to read your post! :-)
Yesterday felt like a real opening - it was kind of exciting. But then (of course) the discounting thought train began: "That wasn't really an opening. You've just been feeling very depressed/contracted lately, and the "opening" was simply a passing of that mood". Today was very hectic/stressful and I was very preoccupied at work, so not much self-inquiry.It seems that this staying with the breath / body is working for you. Keep on with this, but with the extra LU questioning: as thought arises, of noticing if narratives are arising, of noticing the illusory “me” that can so easily seem to tell them.
This really resonated with me. Your words above triggered that for me again. I heard them as you saying that "the shift and smile that happens when you look into the mirror is a recognition of IT".
Ha ha! Yes exactly!
As Rupert said in that video: "this is as good as it gets - awareness being aware of itself". Thank you for that!
Perhaps one could say ‘THIS is as good as it gets!’ ha ha! And you are very welcome. :-)
Let me know what happens today / tomorrow with this.
Its funny, when openings happen, they're not necessarily experienced in terms of self/no-self. More like a letting go and a relaxing into experience accompanied by bound-up energy being released and becoming available. I have a feeling these are all descriptions of the same process though.
I just did the body/breath exercise you suggested along with LU inquiry. Thoughts were experienced as simply appearing, with no thought of someone thinking them. This was pretty clear and didn't seem like a dilemma to be figured out.
I'll let the unwinding continue and see what arises!
Have a good day!